Vampire Servant (J.JK)

Ch 60: A Joyful Day

Y/N

''You're not scared...of dying?'' 

For some reason, the awkward tension between Jungkook and me faded away. Both of us were curled up into blankets seated on the couch, a cup of hot coffee in our hands. 

We were talking about the whole situation we are in right now, leading to this question. I think if you would ask me this question when we first met I would be nodding my head violently. I would be begging for anyone to protect me and keep me alive, but right now. It's not like that anymore.

To be honest that question never occurred to me once. Not once did I think...but what if I die right now. 

Asking myself this question right now...I still don't feel any sense of fear. 

''I think I'm more scared of the people I care about dying....rather than myself.'' 

It's true...whenever danger occurs my mind instantly flashes to my loved ones. Hoping they are well, and alive. Just remembering when Byeol died....embracing her cold body in my arms as I cried. The smell of blood, that lifeless look in her eyes as she was no longer here. The fear I felt that day....nothing would be worse than that. Not even....when I'm the one at the brink of death. 

That's what I think. 

''That makes sense....after all being told to forget about them and live your life with them no longer in it...is the scariest of all.'' Hearing Jungkook says those words I could tell that he was talking about his parents. 

They died, but that's all I know...he never talked about it in detail. Neither did Hoseok nor Mr. Lee give away any of that information to me. 

'''That's why I wanna do all I can to help....and protect everyone. I can't lose anyone else...especially Jooha.'' 

Knowing that a spy infiltrated Hak Taesung his grounds was still something leaving me with nerves at the moment. 

Jooha....please be safe.

''To think one of those Royal their spies infiltrated his place...Even we aren't able to track down his whereabouts.'' It seemed Jungkook was puzzled about this matter as well. 

''One of his men betrayed him, I'm sure of it there isn't another logical explanation.''

''Wouldn't it be better to have one of us do that too. We should have someone act as a traitor but instead, they aren't. It would be the fastest way to get close to them and get the useful information we need.'' Personally, I thought my idea was something clever and great but Jungkook took a calm sip of his coffee before shaking his head. 

''That person will just end up like the spy they send to us. They are Originals things like that is something they can figure out by just looking at that person.''

''Are Originals really that dangerous.'' It was a low mutter coming from me but even so, Jungkook heard it. 

''They are.'' Mr. Lee and Hoseok don't seem that dangerous to me...

''They are on a completely different level from us, regarding skills and strength.'' 

Why does it seem like he is, stating this as we don't stand a chance? 

''Even so...everyone has their weaknesses.'' We shouldn't forget that. 

''I just wish I would be better of use.'' I placed my cup down before sinking back into the couch pulling the blanket to my neck. 

It's been ages since I felt like laying down my burdens by someone else, especially Jungkook. 

''You know when first finding out I had these....abilities, of course, it was a lot to take but it made me happy too. Perhaps now I will be able to be useful. That is what I thought. I would train to learn how to control it, become stronger and protect myself and the others around me, but to be honest. What I thought was perhaps a gift given to me....appears to be a curse.''