Her untold story

27/8/21

Hello readers,

Todays I have decided to just talk about what's going on with me because I haven't talked to anyone about it yet  and so lol I wanted to type it here first .

I have gotten the chance to link back up with someone very important to me and wow lol it has been interesting ,so much fear had sparked in me . I don't know know what to do anymore let me start from the beginning.

someone I am currently in love with slept with someone else and like I am not angry or anything cause we are not together anymore but the thing is now that we are talking I'm beginning to feel as history is repeating its self because the last time I was in love it didn't end as I wished however I'm very happy for the outcome .and now the same thing is happening with my now lover with another person I'm so afraid of this heartbreak I know it yet to come and I freaking hate it because what me and my lover have I really wanted it to work  we talked about kids and so many future plans together and now its just so sad . I feel so much hurt alone because its like none of my close friends will truly understand where I'm coming from ..

Lol I don't even know how to tell him I feel so over it like can just stay friends I have to stop killing my hear like this I'm literally telling myself no he wont do it even when situations keep occurring that are just making me look dumb and like enough is enough I'm so tired of this feeling it sucks so bad and it hurts and I don't have it in me to be the girl I was once before I am soooo over ittt .

I am about to talk to my boy bestfriend he's such a hottie lmao but lol I will also write down the advice that he tell me because I can't this shit anymore period.

My bestfriend told me to talk to him and I did it was such  a short conversation because it was straight to the point we talked about future and if he even wants to be with me ,so were just talking right now he says he just needs time meaning he just has to figure  some things out .

I am okay with that but I want to be ready for anything so I am protected ,everything will be okay I just have to stand strong and trust in faith and destiny .

that's it for tonight lol 

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,

ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.