Her untold story

10/3/22

Hello readers,

It has definitely been a while since I've blogged and wow why is there always so much that comes with time.

I wonder sometime what would have been of this time if I didn't choose the path that I have chosen, this path has been so eye opening and heartbreaking I can't believe I was once so crazy about someone and now its like another switch in me has been turned off and it sucks so much I wish I could scream and make all of the hurt go away the pain the disappointment disappear its like no mater how hard I try at times some things just aren't meant to be  .

Lol I broke up with him and wow  lol you would never believe the reason why I am honestly very tired of love lol the song explains how I feel ,I just don't understand how could this be love . I cried over a million times because of him and I bet he doesn't even know half of the times but because I was so in love with him I kept taking him back so blindly for what would occur once more in the future and I am just so damn tired of it all .

So much is beginning to be an eye opener and it sucks that things had to end this way I cant freaking believe this has happened again but I was so blind my friend had warned me to not step into those waters once again and I did it again but no more.

I am beginning to feel the same feeling I once felt with my past lover, its like my heart is protecting itself we are no longer angry just hurt but that feeling will go by and everything will be better once more and we could be friends  and thats it.

Besides that I am happy I got the chance to talk to  a lot of my friends I miss them so much and lol well it was amazing to hear  it felt so good lol I cannot wait till I get the chance to see them .Also talked to someone new he is very interesting lol like his mindset and the way he thinks is so intriguing I like his vibe and personality very lol bold and you can never go wrong with being a truthful person ,well like you can but lol he chill I guess.

I know everything will be okay I got through a lot of things on my own so this should be no problem .It feels like God has so many plans for me that I am yet to approach to be honest I am very anxious .

I figured what I want to do in this life, I want to buy a big house somewhere in the world not sure where exactly yet but the house will be a youth center ,teens of all ages will be able to go there for help with different things such as homework or just mental health or a chill spot . Teens years are more difficult then what people make it the battles that people fight that are so invisible its crazy but I want to be able to help in best way I can and create a place in which teen will be comfortable to talk and relax and become inspired by the idea that they can do anything they put their minds to . In doing so I will also be a teacher because I have such a strong passion for helping and teaching its been that way since day one I just want to spread my light and inspire.

I will never stop being me and the person that I am meant to be nothing will ever stop me , this dream of mine is going to happen and I am going to make it happen I have God my Yah by my side and thats all that matters . I will continue to write my books and inspire people from all over the world as I am suppose to do .I believe so much in my self and I am so proud of how far I've truly come words cannot even describe how I feel and everything will be okay .

PEACE AND BLESSINGS TO ALL ,

ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.