Her untold story

10/10/21

Dear readers,

It feels like it has been way to long since I have blogged loll but I  am here now over the past week so much has happened I went through depression and heartache because of a situation that has occurred me and my man and I was forced to break it of in order to teach him important lesson it has been really such a tough  week but things had begun to get a little better .

To  be honest I really don't know how to really feel about my man and the whole situation I just want to be there for him because so much had suddenly began to happen in his life and lol he needs me and I need him so yeah I just pray that things go as planned and actually be ok, its just so much all going on at once and its just so stressful but I will figure out. I don't know what god has in plan for me but I am patiently waiting and listening the  signals that he is sending .

I am trying to focus on a lot lately it feel like so much is being thrown at m and I do not feel like I am at peace anymore it eels like my peace is so gone . throughout the time of being on my own I learned so much about myself and what I learn made my mind and thoughts more mature and allowed me to make better decisions and for that I really am proud of myself.

I am trying to take things one step at a time .

Something that I have realized is that when people tend to have certain traits  the world or  people tend to make that who they are and thats not true because no matter what you have the ability to change anything about you , you have the ability to break a generational curse that has been passed down everything is just a mindset the way you think of things and how do you act upon things .

Furthermore, Friday night I wrote a new poem about life and frustration and I feel like many can really relate to it so lol I hope you enjoy.

Dear life by : NBSY

I speak of you at times when I'm feeling down so many different types of words come to my head and so many emotions are felt like splashes of paint being thrown on to the canvas, you know like what the hell ?! Why did this happen ?! Why ? Why ? Why ?

Why is it that every step I take I meet a wall in front of me so unexpectedly like where do you come From , the frustration that life brings upon us all making us wait for things we've worked so hard for .

Throwing huge pots and pans at us that makes so much noise in the background when we're just trying to shine uhg dear life I've only asked for peace in mind.

I prayed unto the lord above for answers and yet no one answers tell me why ?

Dear life through all of your natural cycles, why do you choose to pick fights between you and I ?!

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,

ALWAYS REMEBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.