Her untold story

25/12/21

Hello readers ,

Today is charismas for some of the world so if your celebrating happy holiday ,although I do not celebrate  wow times really changed and emotions have changed throughout this short period of time .

I was just so angry and hurt a few days ago but now I am not I am so much more at peace then I ever was and lol I will tell you what happened . So the other day I was about to have a break down talking to my bestfriend but then I was like fuck it and I was like I want to snap on my ex lol because the way we ended I didn't really say much I was just saying okay because honestly I was so over it at that moment overwhelmed by lot of things and under pressure, so yes I needed to let some things out .

Everything happened on Thursday and it went well I think lol I was just sending paragraphs of how I felt snapping and all I think he felt my emotions a little about certain parts but I really didn't like how he stayed strongminded about not being in my life .He doesn't even understand how much of everyone opinion  on our relationship doesn't matter he said his dad asked him what is it that he has to offer me, like he has lots to offer me  what he needs is for someone to be by his side and not give up on him then he will be fine .I think that when we meet things will be different I know my mindset will be different then what it is but one thing I know for sure is that I ill never stop loving him .

He really means so much to me and I feel like God put me in his life for a reason and maybe relationship wasn't exactly it but like we fit so much together we complete each other and I really wish he could see that but he is so stuck in the mindset that he isn't good for me and that I deserve more ,truth be told I am not interested in anyone else I am attracted to hi because I see some of my struggles that I have overcome in him and I just want to guide him so that he can be more at peace .

I bet so many don't understand why is he the way that he is but I do although I do not know everything I can sense certain things; I want to remain in his life not as a partner as for now but maybe just as friend in this time because I know what loneliness  feels like when it feels like the whole world is against you.

I hope that we will meet soon and things become better but for now I pray for you a little prayer in my heart that you are safe and in the midst of your loved ones .This season has been so tough honestly so much has been going on but I have been finding the positivity in everything that I possibly can because life is truly a journey and is just yet to truly began .I am excited for the future and what Yah (God) has in store for me I pray that my actions of the past grant me  a bright future lol .I am forever grateful for all of the blessings that have come my way thus far and I can't wait for you all to see what I have been working on.

Its a SIX day countdown till my book release I hope you guys are as excited as I am . 

PEACE AND BLESSINGS ,

ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.