Her untold story

21/6/24

Hello readers ,

My day started off pretty well , but lord did life take a toll on my damn emotions whew 😥.

I just had an over load of emotions come by me and this shit sucks I also came to a realization of a few things regarding my relationship with a friend and myself .

First with my friend I have realized that we are on such different paths that he no longer has time for me in my life and that his life isn't joined with mine in any kind of way and as the result our relationship has become strained or will become .

I realized with myself that a lot of times when I feel myself going through things than I seem to occupy myself or deal with it alone or crave for comfort that I find hard to reach out for others to give .

Im a bit frustrated with life because its getting a bit hard emotionally because there is no friend I can call or go to their house and cry on their shoulder .
There is no guy I would even feel comfortable to even be more than friends with, things are so much more complicated.

I worked on myself for years and I continue to do so ,it that as I put myself out there than it hardly goes well never do I regret it but the results aren't as flattering as I would like .

I am okay being on my own sometimes but other times its really hard and I am not one who doesn't mind being alone sometimes but it gets tougher when its too much .

My heart is breaking from the things I discovered about mines and my friends relationship because I know that our friendship isn't going to get far this year unless a major change is made and I doubt it could be made .

I hope that friend is doing okay which I am sure he is but I think that our chapter is near its ending just as it was with his partner.

I really wish things were a bit easier than this but I blocked a lot of people lol because it hurts to see old messages and names pop up so yeah .

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,
ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.