Her untold story

3/2/24

Hello readers,

This blog is dedicated to you JR.

Lol I don't know how we gather the mental and physical strength to do this everytime ( saying goodbye) it is like fate keeps pulling us in and out of each others lives and everytime things change.

This time feels different well I guess everytime is different because when we get pulled into eachother we come back different people and fall in love all over again with that new version of ourselves.

I dont really want this to be a love declaration lol because than I will start crying and I know you don't like when I do that lol but sucks for you cause our last messeges you will hear me cry because I want you to know and feel every emotion I have pent up inside of me .

I have this idea of us being able to stay in contact and I hope that it will be able to work, through our words and all.

It is so hard and yet funny to look back at all of things that have happened over the course of such little time, to say that I wanted to try again only makes me giggle and cry now because circumstances will not allow it. I do not know where this will lead us into the future however if by 25 know I will come find you and be with you wherever you are lol. 

Such bold statemements coming from a pretty girl lol your probably thinking who wouldn't want to be with you? lol I haven't really been searching high and low to find someone but from what I discovered I will never find someone like you, someone that I burn for , someone who makes my heart happy and angry at same time lol what an adventure .

I sometimes dream about what could be if we were in another dimension for you are my muse after all to my creativity, every single part of you.

Part of me thinks I should just leave things are and we go our seperate ways but my the other half wants to wait for you. Others tell me to just move on and find someone else but they also don't understand the deph of my love for such a special human, I am no longer blinded by love because I do know your flaws I do know of your dark sides and the darkness of your past but that doesn't deter me .

In another life I imagine us somewhere cozy and warm always near eachother with little clothes on, I hope that next time I read this passage peace is restored amongst us as we've waited years for us to bond.

I love to see the growth within you and me there is so much that I want to tell you and it really sucks to keep everything inside of me , maybe one day you can read my blog and see from the beginning how I truly choose you from the start.

I have no idea what the future will bring but if we can't be together hopefully we can always be friends.

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,

ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.