Her untold story

25/6/24

Hello  readers,

Haven't been really feeling like myself lately but I am happy I remembered to journal this moment.

I had a horrible nightmare last night and I couldn't sleep properly, i don't remember how the dream went anymore because time has gone by but I remember the feeling that continues to linger within me at the moment.

I have a love and hate relationship with energies because some times it can be so beautiful and others so scary .

Than to top all of that off someone that I really liked decided to stumble back into my life for a few min then had the audacity to leave without letting me know that we aren't talking anymore .

Sometimes I wonder what do I mean to people and do I put them in a too high of a place in my life . It's beginning to feel like I really have little to lean on when I am feeling down or need someone to talk too, but its like when others need me I am always there .

It feels like people are always walking out of my life that "supposedly " loves me , and I say that because I am just finding it odd how people talk so much and their actions never match.

I am not one that is delusional to think that the world revolves me or anything like that however I do feel that if you say you care about someone the least you can do is check on them every now and then . I understand that everyone has their own life and journey that their on but that shouldn't deter them from checking in on people they say they care about.

Uhggg I feel like extremely extra emotional today and lol I know this shit isn't gonna serve me well in the long run but I am just not feeling life right now honestly.

I am tired of getting close to people only to end up strangers .

I don't feel well emotionally, mentally going through an energy battle but I think I will he okay.

I just wish that things were a little different.

And then to make things better today at the market this guy freaking touches me , when I tell you I was five min from picking up a rock and stoning this guy because who the hell gave him permission  to touch me ,the audacity and the freaking energy that transferred freaking disgusting.

I pray that tomorrow is better for me emotionally. As always ....

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,
ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.