Her untold story

11/1/22

Hello readers,

God life keeps changing so much and wow I have no more words for it .

I know things will be okay and I will get through anything I set my mind too but its so challenging at times I want to just let go of everything and just cry; it feels like things just keep happening back to back and it's so annoying and frustrating I have already had so many changes happening in my life. moving to a country that I don't feel like I belong and it's so beautiful here there is so much to see I am very much grateful to be able to be here but I cannot shake off the feeling that I don't belong .

So many times in my life I felt like I didn't belong and its just so rough sometimes .I am currently trying to keep my emotions at bay due to mother nature decided to say hello today .Today marks day one being solely alone  and to be honest I've been reading and sleeping all day to keep me busy .I miss my friends I cannot wait to travel it will be so amazing I love to travel I can't wait to see my girls and friends and their children oh my god it will be so amazing .

It feel like so much time has gone by but really it has since the last time I talked to my girl friends lol her amazing personality is so beautiful I am counting down the days till I'll be able to see her and her man lol they are such a cute couple young parents to a little champion and another on the way ;its the day I get to hug my friends and wow their are so many of them ,it's really crazy how many people you will or could meet through one person but lol on the real deal its crazy how one person can come in your life and flip your world upside down .

I have learned lot of lessons these past two years and went through a lot emotionally and physically; the year 2021 was such an interesting year I went through so much only Yah (God) was able to get me through it all ,I can't believe someone so special to my heart made transition that was one of the hardest moments of the year I remember that day so vividly the moment I heard of her passing tears swelled up in m eyes my beautiful angel is now no longer I walked home in tears wanting to scream ,just months before I was missing her and I text her can't wait to see you and then so suddenly the news broke my heart and to be completely honest nobody was really there ,of course a few said some warm words but nobody took the time to ask me during the week was I okay or what's going on .

I cried so many nights alone screaming in my pillow and yet lol the pain still hadn't gone away ;I have so many memories of her wow so many amazing memories ,she will never be forgotten she will always live within me ,I knew she loved me so much with all her heart . I miss  her so   much ,

I had to say goodbye to some of my friends yesterday lol it sucks so bad but I will meet them soon hopefully I hope yah has my back on this trip I want to go on so bad .

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,

ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY,WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.