Hello readers,
New month lol . Today I am not really feeling life honestly I was okay earlier but then a whirlwind of emotions just hit me .
Feeling like your not enough for everyone hurts, its a scar that feels ingrained in me.
To be honest I am beginning to feel like the characters in the book that I am reading obsessing over someone who doesn't give a flying flip about me but wait lets jot say obsessive lol that sounds a bit rough I will just say that the certain person comes to my mind more often then needed.
To be honest its kinda fucking with me and I don't really know how to process it in a peaceful way. I am learning that I have to feel things in order to find peace within them but to be real I have been wallowing in sadness these past few days .
I realized things about myself I do not like when people come in and out of my life that gets on my nerves so bad I guess that has to do with childhood .
Also that I tend to roll in sand with people I have no business being associated with lol and not to say they are bad people or anything of that sort but its just a bad defense mechanism .
Many times I tend to drown myself in sorrows or live in another book alone and quietly. I learned that I don't really care for loud sounds unless its the sound of music .
I am not really feeling the best and I wish I had someone to talk its funny how loneliness can drown such a light person.
I met up with some close family friends yesterday from back home and it was amazing seeing them I am looking forward to what tomorrow will bring me .
It amuses me how when I mention that I feel alone when supposedly so many people care , I am really not a selfish girl but if you say you love someone dont they suppose to feel it even from here?
I realized how much I've began to dislike the company of others is it a growing up thing that comes along.
Tonight I will drown my sorrows as much as I can and try not to put myself down so much because I know that I am really doing that best that I can.
PEACE AND BLESSINGS,
ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.
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Her untold story
AventuraMany people live through many adventures in their lives and it's not recorded or written . So ..... this is my story
