Her untold story

22/9/22

Hello readers,

I am kind of disappointed in myself that I have not been journaling as much as I should have but it's like what to do I cannot take back that time and it is okay.

Recently I have been working hard with my students and to be completely honest it wasn't or isn't all sunshine and rainbows but that's okay, there is a lot of learning that is taking place in this journey which I am excited to take on.

I can't believe I finally have a Kenyan friend and let me tell you all getting friends here is not the easiest thing in the world. The social construct here is different from how it is in Israel but that's okay.

In this season of the atonement so many crazy things have begun to come out, honestly speaking it is very scary like there are literal rapists and just crazy people coming into light. The sad part about all that is coming out is it is from people that I know first it was someone from my community, and next was my teacher who is a child predator.

It is truly insane to me how crazy some humans truly are and it is quite scary, to say the least, the lengths that people would go through just to hurt you and take advantage of you. Sometimes those things make me rethink about having kids in this world but then I remember that not all of the world is the same because it is hard to think positively at times when it feel like negativity is shining at its greatest.

Besides all of the craziness, I am enjoying life and my present, I have started to take another course about child development the Instructor is kind of boring no lie but it is okay. I am proud of myself and how disciplined I have been because, to be honest, I have to start treating myself right just as I treat others and not always put myself last.

In this season I had to say goodbye to more people which at this point I am okay with because I can't do it on and off with anyone else in my life I just want stability at this point rather it is with friends or with family. 

I am beginning to learn a lot more about myself and what I want and I will not shy myself from anything I want or deserve, I am so done with being okay with things I am not okay with .

My life will be as I want it to be.

yours truly teacher Nashamyah ,

PEACE AND BLESSINGS,

ALWAYS REMEMBER THE NAME NBSY, WHERE LOVE COMES FIRST.