twenty one pilots imagines (part two)

drifting (tyler)

pairing: tyler joseph x reader
word count: 1255
tw: angst

"tyler, you're on in fifteen!" one of the crewmates called, as tyler rushed back into the dressing room. he passed me without saying a single word and i felt a bit hurt. usually, he gave me a quick kiss before he finished getting ready.

"yes, i'm aware that i'm on in fifteen minutes!" tyler growled, clearly stressed. he was about to leave when i stopped him.

"wait, babe-"

"what?! do you need something from me too, y/n?! gosh, it's always tyler this and tyler that! do something yourself for once!" he cut me off, angrily. i felt a lump form in my throat.

"i just wanted to tell you i loved you and i wanted to give you a kiss." i said, my voice becoming small.

"well, i'm on in fifteen and you can clearly tell i'm stressed. whatever you have to say, can wait until later."

he didn't even listen to the words i had just said to him. i just wanted to tell him i loved him. he had been like this all throughout tour and it was really bugging me. yes, we were married, but it felt like we were drifting away from each other. and i would have been damned if i let that happen.

"are you even listening?! i just told you i wanted to say i loved you. i don't want anything but for you to say it back, and you're completely dismissing me!" i stood up for myself. tyler scrunched up his eyebrows.

"you knew what you were signing up for when you married me. this is the life you wanted, isn't it y/n?" he argued. i took a deep breath.

"no, tyler! it's not! i signed up for your love and affection. i didn't sign up to be alone most of my time, and when i'm not alone i can barely sit down and have a conversation with you. hell, if i had to tell you something important, you wouldn't know because you're always putting your fans first!"

"if you're so alone all the time then why don't you fucking go home?!"

"then i will after the show!"

we both stared at each other in silence, not knowing what to say. tyler then angrily grabbed his beanie and turned around.

"enjoy the show." he spit, storming out of the room. once he disappeared i sat on the couch and began to cry.

i hated it when we fought.

tyler's pov

the moment i walked out of the dressing room, i regretted the entire conversation. i loved y/n, and i shouldn't have taken my stress out on her. it wasn't fair to her at all.

i knew i was going to blow up at some point. i just wished it wasn't at her. but she was there, and i was on my last straw. i regretted every single thing that came out of my mouth.

i wanted to make it up to her, but she was already leaving after the show. that was something i absolutely did not want. even though i had been super busy lately, knowing she was there in the crowd, made me feel much better. there would be no time to convince her after the show, so i had to go with my last resort.

before the show started, i told josh we were doing a set change. i wanted to keep trees last as always, but there was a song i wanted to do right before it. for y/n. the song wasn't released yet and she didn't even know it, but i owed her a pleasant surprise.

josh nodded and gave me a thumbs up before we walked out on stage.

y/n, i hope you stay after this.

your pov

after i finished crying, i shoved all my clothes in my suitcase. fine, if he didn't want me on tour i would go home. at least then i wouldn't be alone.

hell, maybe i could file divorce papers. it's not a marriage if only one person is communicating. i shook my head at the thought. i couldn't divorce him. especially since...

i zipped up my suitcase and looked at the clock. there was about a half hour left of the show. i figured i would watch it, because it would be my last show.

i found my spot in the vip section as i watched my husband perform. he looked so happy. it was like all the stress he had earlier was washed away.

after he finished the song, he looked at josh. the two nodded in silent agreement before the next song started. it was supposed to be trees, but it was not.

i did not know this song.

"an-nyŏng-ha-se-yo!" tyler said into the microphone.

"sometimes you gotta bleed to know," he sang. "that you're alive and have a soul."

i had never once heard this song in my life. it wasn't on any of their albums. i knew it wasn't a cover, because even all the fans were as confused as i was. but as i got into the song, i realized it was an unreleased song.

and it was for me.

"she's the tear in my heart, i'm alive!" tyler sang, happily, holding eye contact with me. i couldn't wipe away the smile on my face. gosh, he was so amazing. it was like our earlier argument was erased completely. all i could think about was how much i loved him.

"cut me farther..than i've ever been." the song ended. everyone cheered extremely loudly, myself being the loudest. i loved the song. i couldn't believe he performed it for me, even though it wasn't out yet. he must have really felt bad for arguing.

"that one's tear in my heart, and it will be on the next album!" tyler said, as everyone's cheers got even louder. he made eye contact with me and winked, so quick that if i wasn't looking, i'd miss it.

tyler and josh performed trees and then the show was over. i made sure i was right back stage so i could greet tyler as soon as he was done. i was so excited, that i decided it was a good time to give tyler news of my own.

when tyler came backstage, he ran to me. i pulled him into an immediate kiss, that in which he gladly accepted.

"i'm so sorry. i shouldn't have taken my stress out on you. i love you more than anything in the world and i'm so sorry i made you feel alone." tyler apologized. i shook my head.

"it's okay, baby. i knew you were stressed, i shouldn't have pressed you like that." i replied.

"no way, you just wanted to tell me you loved me. i completely lashed out for no reason."

"tyler, i forgive you! i do! and also..that song is amazing."

tyler blushed and looked at the ground.

"you like it?" he asked me. i nodded, intently.

"i love it, ty!" i confirmed. he smiled.

"please don't go home, y/n. stay with me. i promise i'll make more of an effort to be there, even if i'm stressed."

i rubbed the back of my neck uncomfortably. even though things were settled between us, there was another reason i wanted to go home. well, needed to go home technically.

"tyler, uhm, i actually probably should go home anyways."

"what? why, what's wrong?"

"i'm pregnant."