twenty one pilots imagines (part two)

come back home (josh)

pairing: josh dun x reader
word count: 1143
tw: angst, major character death, language

"how did it go?" josh asked me, as soon as i walked through the door. i set the paper on the counter and walked up to him, trying to contain a neutral expression.

"i did it, josh. i finally beat my anxiety and got my driver's license. i actually did it." i told my boyfriend. getting my license was not an easy thing for me to do because driving made me anxious. but finally, after a few driver's tests, i did it.

josh engulfed me in a huge hug and swept me off my feet. i held on to him tight as we both giggled.

"you have no idea how proud of you i am. you faced your fears and now you're not afraid of them. just like i said." josh said to me. i smiled, widely. i was so lucky to have him. he always encouraged me and never let me give up on myself. no matter how much i wanted to.

"i love you, josh dun. more than life."

"then marry me."

my eyes widened as josh walked into the kitchen and unlocked a drawer i never knew even opened. he grabbed a velvet box and ran back over to me. he placed it into my hands and let out a nervous chuckle.

"i've wanted to do this for a few months now but i couldn't decide on a good time. i love you more than i've loved anyone before and nothing would make me happier than having you by my side for the rest of our lives. so...will you marry me?" josh proposed. i immediately wrapped my arms around him and started to cry. he was so amazing. i truly didn't deserve him.

"i take that as a yes?" josh asked, laughing. i squeezed him, nodding.

"i love you so much. so, so, much." i tried to say. but my words were shaky as i cried. but josh still knew what i was trying to say.

"i love you more. i can't wait to marry you." he told me.

"i can't wait either, joshie."

three months later

"so, june 7th." i said. josh smiled, kissing my cheek.

"yup. eight months." he replied. i sighed.

"so far away." i pouted. my fiancé chuckled.

"with wedding preparations, it'll go fast i'm sure."

"speaking of, i think we're out of envelopes for the invitations. do you want me to go out and grab some?"

"it's okay, i can go grab some." josh offered. i smiled at how considerate he was. he still knew driving made me a tad anxious.

"no, i insist. i'll be back before you know it." i insisted. josh stood up and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me into a kiss.

"in that case, drive safe. i love you, fiancée."

"i love you too, fiancé."

i grabbed my keys and went out to my new car and started it. i was overfilled with joy over just grabbing envelopes for mine and josh's wedding invitations. everything about the wedding excited me to the brim.

i just couldn't wait to be officially josh's for the rest of my life.

josh's pov

i sat on the couch, picking my nails as i waited for y/n to return home. it was no secret that i got nervous when she was driving alone. i understood that there were assholes driving around at night and i didn't want her to get hurt.

after about a half hour, i grew a bit anxious myself. why was it taking her so long to get home? maybe i was overthinking it. or maybe there was just traffic.

it was after an hour when i grew reckless. something had to be wrong. i walked around my house, biting my nails, checking the time every thirty seconds. unfortunately, y/n left her phone at home so i couldn't call her.

where are you?

eventually my phone started to ring. i didn't hesitate to answer, even though it was a random number. it could still be y/n.

"hello?" i answered, a little to eager than my usual tone, but i was eager. i needed to know if y/n was alright.

"is this joshua dun?" a person asked. i gulped.

"this is he." i replied.

"we regret to inform you that your fiancée has been in a fatal car crash on route 21."

fatal car crash.

"oh my gosh..will she be alright?"

"after being sent into emergency surgery, she unfortunately passed away twenty minutes in. we are so sorry for your loss."

it felt like the earth started to turn the opposite direction. nothing made sense anymore. i dropped my phone and collapsed on the ground, starting to sob violently.

she was gone. the only woman i ever loved...she was gone.

it was all my fault.

two weeks later

dear y/n,

it shouldn't have gone this way. it was all my fault. i should have gone with you to get the envelopes. but now you're gone, and i've never felt so empty in my life.

we were soulmates, you and i. i always thought i'd die if you were taken from me. i'm not dead, but in a way i feel like a part of me did die the night of the car crash.

you were part of me. now that you're gone, nothing works the same anymore. i long for you. i'll roll over in bed and just realize there's nothing there. it hurts so bad. i don't think it will ever go away.

i just wish you could come back home. we could finish the stupid wedding invitations and finally get married. we could have kids and then become an even bigger team when they rebelled against us as teenagers. i wish we could finish our story.

but this was reality. our story didn't have a happy ending. it didn't matter how much we loved each other.

i do still love you. i always will. one day, in the future, we'll be together again. just wait for me, okay?

forever yours,

josh

i placed the enveloped letter on the casket as tears dripped from my face. i had never been in so much pain in my life.

i had been through so many injuries in my life, and nothing compared compared the pain i endured by loosing y/n. i missed her so much. it was so unfair for her to be taken away from me so early.

i walked back over to tyler who wrapped his arm around me.

"it's gonna be okay. she would have wanted you to move on." he whispered. i nodded as even more tears fell. they started to lower her casket into the ground.

i just wished she could've come back home.