twenty one pilots imagines (part two)

scared (tyler)

pairing: tyler joseph x reader
word count: 933
tw: angst, mention of accidental pregnancy, language

a/n: this takes place during an earlier imagine called "slip ups" and this is tyler's point of view after he leaves

i walked out the door and immediately regretted it.

i mean, i was scared. i thought y/n and i were being careful. i didn't think there was any way she could be pregnant.

i did not feel ready. well, we just weren't. we were about to go on tour, and adding a baby to the mix was not going to make things any easier.

but what i should not have done was accuse y/n of cheating. i knew she would never. but when the words "ty, i'm pregnant" came out of her mouth i immediately became distressed.

it's not that i didn't want a child. no. i definitely wanted to start a family. but i always liked having things planned.

this was not what i had planned.

i had no idea where i was walking. i really did want fresh air, but i also needed advice. so i walked to the closest person who i knew would be there for me.

"hey tyler, i didn't know you were coming. what's up?" josh greeted me when i knocked on his door.

"y/n's pregnant." i said, no emotion in my voice. i still didn't know how to feel.

"what? congrats, man! you get to be a dad!" josh congratulated me. i looked at the ground and shook my head. wow, i was such a dick to her. i should have just talked to her about it.

"wait, what's wrong? oh God, it's not yours is it?" josh asked me worriedly. i snapped up to look at him.

"of course it's mine! she wouldn't cheat on me, josh." i snapped.

"then why are you all gloomy?"

"can i come in?"

"of course."

i walked into josh's house and he shut the door behind us.

"debby's on a run with jim. she'll be back a while later." josh told me. i nodded. we took a seat at his table and he faced me.

"so i take it, y/n telling you didn't go well?" he inferred.

"i didn't mean to overreact." i stated.

"but how did you react?"

"i pretty much told her there was no way it could be mine because we're so careful and i asked her if she was cheating on me. josh, i'm such an asshole. you should've seen her face, she was so hurt."

"oh shit dude, that's fucked. why don't you want kids though?"

"i do want them, but clearly we can't have a baby now. we're about to go on tour."

"you know, we can always go on tour and pause it for a couple months so you guys can have the baby. i'm sure our fans won't mind. they know we have lives."

what josh said was true. why didn't i think of that? i felt more stupid by the minute.

"you're right. we could definitely do that. i have no clue why i didn't think of that." i told my best friend. he just smiled, giddily.

"well, there you go. you better make me the Godfather after this." he told me. i chuckled.

"for sure. i wouldn't, and i'm sure y/n wouldn't, want anyone else to be the Godfather." i replied.

"speaking of y/n maybe you should get home and talk it out with her."

"no, i think she needs time to cool off. and i still feel mega guilty. i think i'll wait until she's asleep to go home and i'll just sleep on our couch if that's okay with you."

"yes, of course. you can leave whenever you need, my friend." josh assured me. i smiled. what would i do without my best friend?

i stayed at josh's until around 10 when i decided i'd go home. i knew y/n would be asleep by then because she didn't like staying up to late. and surely enough, when i got home, every light except for the porch light was off.

i went inside quietly and took of my shoes and coat. i stopped at the store quickly to grab y/n flowers because i owed her. i went to the counter and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen. i wanted to write her a note in case she woke up before me.

y/n,

i wanted to apologize but you were already asleep when i got home. i'm sorry, baby. i didn't mean to react how i did. i want you to know that i don't believe in the slightest that you cheated. i was just scared. i've always wanted us to have a baby, but i didn't expect us to now. i didn't deal with my emotions well at all and it led to an argument. God, i hate arguing with you. you're my favorite person in the world, nothing makes me sadder than to see you upset because of me. i want you to know that i love you, and i'll support you through everything for this pregnancy. you're the most important thing to me, y/n.

love,
tyler

i then walked over to the couch and set the flowers and note on the coffee table and lounged across the couch. i hoped y/n would wake up before me and see the flowers and note. i really loved her and truly felt bad for overreacting.

but everything would be okay in the end. i knew that for a fact.