twenty one pilots imagines (part two)

better of this way (josh)

pairing: josh dun x reader
word count: 823
tw: accidental pregnancy, some angst

i broke down into tears.

how could we have been so stupid? how could i have been so stupid? we were so careful.

well obviously you weren't if you're sitting there with a positive pink stick in your hand.

i shook my head and wiped the tears. i couldn't tell josh. his band finally got signed to a record label. he didn't have time for a kid. i couldn't put that pressure on him. i loved him too much.

let him go.

we had to breakup. it was better off that way. even if i loved him, he didn't need the stress of a baby. and i didn't want to get rid of the baby either. so leaving was my only choice.

leaving would hurt. after all, josh and i were high school sweethearts. i was there when he joined house of heroes, when he left, when he met chris, when he met tyler, when he joined tyler's band. i didn't want to throw it all away.

i just had to be the bigger person. i had to do what was necessary.

well, what i thought was necessary.

six months later

leaving josh was hard. being alone was hard. going through a pregnancy without the person i needed most was hard.

but i was determined to make it through.

i had support from my families. they respected that i didn't want to burden josh with baby drama and i appreciated it.

i even got a second job so i had extra money for the baby. i was expecting a boy and he was due the day before josh's birthday. my second job was just a part time job at starbucks. just a little simple job.

but one day at work, everything i had been keeping for six months just vanished

"y/n, can you bring this to the front and call the name?" my coworker, liv, asked me. i nodded.

but then i saw the name on the cup.

josh dun.

thank God he couldn't see the baby bump over the counter.

"josh dun." i said. josh slowly walked towards me and my heart race sped. i missed him.

"hey..y/n." josh greeted me. i gave an awkward smile.

"hi- hey josh." i stuttered.

"i didn't know you worked at starbucks."

"yeah i needed an extra job." i admitted, awkwardly.

"oh, i see. uh this is awkward but can we please talk? please?" josh asked me. i wanted to say yes. and i had no reason to say no. except for the growing bump on my stomach. but i missed him. i missed my josh.

"yeah. yeah, sure." i decided. "liv, i'm taking my break now!"

i took off my apron and sighed lightly. i knew josh would know the second i walked in front of him. but maybe i should have just told him in the first place.

when josh saw me, all of me, his eyes widened. and i swallowed, guiltily.

"you can pick a table." i said. josh sat at the nearest table and i sat in front of him.

"what's up?" i asked. he took a shaky breath.

"are you..you're not.." josh struggled with his words. i knew then that i would be the one that had to do most of the talking.

"i'm sorry. yes, i'm pregnant. and yes he's your son." i confirmed. josh frowned.

"why didn't you tell me, y/n?" he asked me.

"i was afraid. i didn't think you'd want to postpone your career for a baby when you just got signed finally. that's why i left."

"of course i'd stop everything if i knew you were having a baby. i love you, y/n. i want the world for us."

i looked into josh's eyes and smiled. i didn't understand why i ever kept the pregnancy from him. he has always been sweet and understanding. i was worried for nothing.

"i love you too josh. i'm sorry i didn't tell you."

"it's okay. you did what you thought was best. but, i really want to be there for you and the baby. if you'd let me."

"of course, josh." i smiled. josh took my hands in his and kissed them. he did that a lot when we were dating.

"will you get back together with me?" josh proposed. i nodded.

"absolutely. i still loved you even though i left. i always have and always will." i told josh.

"i'm so glad you said yes then. i love you so much, y/n."

"i love you too, josh."

"y/n your break is up!" my manager called.

"looks like that's my que." i said with a small laugh.

"what time to you get out?" josh asked me.

"6."

"i'll call you then. okay?" josh told me. i nodded.

"okay. i love you josh." i replied.

"i love you too."