twenty one pilots imagines (part two)

my lover, his brother (josh)

pairing: josh dun x reader (tad bit of jordan too)
word count: 1276
tw: some angst

"josh'll be here in ten. everything ready and cooked?" jordan asked me. i smiled and nodded.

"yup. noodles are all boiled and the meatsauce is cooked up." i replied. jordan went in for a hug, his embrace not making me nearly as excited as it used to when we first started dating six months ago. i didn't understand why. actually, i did, but the reason why had always made me feel quite guilty.

"guess i should help you set the table." jordan said, pulling away.

"i would like that."

jordan helped me set the table. just a few moments after, the doorbell rang. i was quick to answer it, knowing that it would be josh.

"hello, y/n. you look lovely tonight." josh said, when i opened the door. i looked away and blushed. you see, that was just my problem. my feelings for jordan had faded and feelings for his older brother bloomed. i know it sounds messed up, but no matter how much josh and i flirted, we never acted on it. i couldn't do that to jordan.

"hi, josh. you look nice too." i replied. i let him in and i took his coat from him. he was wearing a yellow and black flannel with black ripped jeans. i began to wonder if the flannel was to promote his band's newest album.

"dinner is all set up on the table." i told josh. he nodded.

"sick. where's my little brother?" he asked me.

"most likely waiting for us." i replied. we walked out to the dining room and jordan was sitting at the table waiting for us.

"hey, jordan!" josh greeted his brother.

"hey, bro. sit down, let's eat." jordan replied. the three of us sat down and began to fill our plates. i sat by josh and jordan sat across from us. this was how it normally was, as jordan and i liked to be able to see each other.

"so, josh, how was tour?" jordan asked, starting polite conversation.

"oh, it was good. just nine months of dealing with tyler and jenna constantly showing each other affection and me being the third wheel. but, at least the shows were good." josh said. jordan looked away at his food and josh and i made eye contact. josh gave me a sly wink.

"yeah man, you should just get a girlfriend. i'm sure there's plenty of chick's out there who would want to be with you." jordan told josh. josh shrugged.

"i don't know. i mean, i like this one girl but it'll never happen. that i'm sure of." josh stated, but then his hand moved to my leg. i had to refrain from jumping, as i wasn't expecting it. sure, we'd flirted in the past, but this was a little more. i could feel a blush painting my cheeks. i saw josh smirk from the corner of my eye, so i knew he noticed.

"who is this girl? do i know her?" jordan asked.

"you might...but it doesn't matter. her and i are just a dream of mine."

we continued eating and i could easily feel myself getting nervous under josh's glance. this wasn't right. he was my boyfriend's brother, i had no reason to feel this way.

"hey y/n, do you think you could show me the upstairs bathroom? i don't wanna blow up the guest one." josh asked me. my heart beat a tad bit faster. why couldn't he have asked jordan?

"yeah, follow me." i replied.

we got up and made our way upstairs. i showed him our bathroom and he nodded. i was about to walk away when josh stopped me.

"wait." he said. i slowly turned around to face him.

"yes?" i asked. josh sighed.

"we can't keep doing this. we can't just keep denying that we have chemistry, okay? i know you're my brother's girlfriend but i can't deny what feelings are there. there's something between us, y/n."

"josh..we can't. we shouldn't. jordan is downstairs and he's waiting for us."

"y/n are you seriously going to tell me you still love him fullheartedly and you feel nothing for me?"

i never said that.

"that's not the case, josh. i just don't know how to tell jordan that i don't have feelings for him anymore."

"you what?" josh and i snapped around to see jordan in the doorway. i felt my face go pale as a ghost. that was one way for him to find out. and that was the worst way possible.

"jordan...i-i think we should talk." i said. he had already heard me, so i wasn't going to push the obviously necessary conversation away.

"what, why? is everything okay with us?" he asked, panicked.

"we should talk about this downstairs."

the three of us went downstairs and sat on the couch to talk. the previous calm aura was replaced with an unsettling one.

"what were you guys talking about up there?" jordan asked us. "do you really not have feelings for me anymore, y/n?"

"i'm sorry, jordan. i've felt this way for a while, i just haven't known how to tell you. i promise it's not you it's just.." i looked at josh. jordan noticed that.

"do you two have feelings for each other?" jordan asked us.

"i'm sorry, bro. i never meant to catch feelings for your girl. i would never do this to hurt your feelings, you know that. and i swear, we've never done anything intimate behind your back." josh told him. i nodded.

"we would never go that low." i said.

"i understand." jordan said, surprising both josh and myself. "you can't help who you fall in love with. but i appreciate the honesty from both of you. and thank you for not going behind my back. if you guys want to be together, i won't fuss. i love both of you and i want you both to be happy."

"are you sure? i'd never want you to be uncomfortable." josh asked.

"neither would i. if this would be to much for you.." i said.

"it's fine, believe me. just give me a little bit of time before we all start hanging out and stuff. please?" jordsn requested. we nodded.

"of course. absolutely." i replied.

"if you need anything just let us know." josh added. jordan gave a small smile.

"okay. then let's finish dinner and then you two can head back to your houses." he said. we nodded and went back out to the kitchen to finish dinner. it was definitely a bit awkward, but it all turned out okay in the end.

after dinner, josh and i said goodbye to jordan before heading out to our cars.

"so," josh started, after he walked me to my car. "does this mean we're dating?"

"i'm in if your in. we just have to promise not to push it on jordan immediately. we're lucky he was understanding in the first place." i replied. josh nodded.

"i absolutely agree. i want to be with you without unnecessarily hurting my brother."

"so then, i guess you can text me?"

"sounds great. have a good night, y/n."

"you too, josh."

i got in my car and started it. as i drove i couldn't help but feel baffled. at the start of the night i was in a one sided relationship with jordan. but at the end of the night, i was with josh and we didn't have to loose jordan in the process.

i hadn't planned that, that's for sure.