twenty one pilots imagines (part two)

infertile (josh)

pairing: josh dun x reader
word count: 590
tw: angst, infertility, language

"i can't believe we're getting married in a month." i said, cuddling up close to my fiancé, ryan.

"i know. i can't wait to grow old with you and have kids with you. you're the love of my life and i'll never love anyone else." ryan replied. i then sat up and gave him a weak smile.

"right...i have to tell you something." i told him. ryan sat up and gave me a concerned look.

"what is it, love?" he questioned.

"when i was 16 i went to the doctor and i had some tests done on me. when the results came back they..they told me i'm infertile. i can't ever give birth."

"you waited until now to tell me this? seriously?" ryan got up and grew to be quite upset.

"i'm sorry, it's just very hard for me to talk about. we can always adopt or we can hire a surrogate." i told him. he shook his head.

"no way. you're worthless and you can't even give me kids. there's no way in hell i'm marrying you. pack your bags and get out of my house."

"ry-"

"now!! you poor excuse of a woman. you can't even produce a baby."

i began to cry as i ran upstairs to pack my belongings. it wasn't fair. i couldn't help that i couldn't produce a baby. why couldn't he just see past that? there was always tons of children that needed to be adopted.

maybe ryan just wasn't meant for me.

five years later

"the eiffel tower is so gorgeous, josh." i said to my boyfriend, holding his hand. josh chuckled nervously, holding my hand a bit tighter.

"it's pretty. but it's nothing compared to you." he told me. i blushed and turned to look at him.

"i'm not so sure about that." i said. he smiled at me.

"well, i am. i love you more than anything in this world." josh then got down on one knee and took a small velvet box out of his pocket. "so with that being said, will you marry me?"

i immediately started to cry. josh and i had been dating for three years and i loved him more than i had ever loved ryan. but i still hadn't told him about my infertility.

"oh josh, i'd love- i'd love to marry you but there's still something i haven't told you." i cried. josh's face filled with concern.

"what is it? i'm sure we can work through it." he asked me. he wrapped his arms around me and held me. i hoped people weren't watching us, as we were making quite the scene.

"m'infertile josh. i can't have kids." i told josh, tears falling from my cheeks.

"that doesn't matter to me. i still want to marry you. we can always adopt if we want to have kids."

i looked up at josh and smiled.

"really? you still want to marry me after that?"

"of course i do. i love you so much that it doesn't matter to me if you can't produce a baby. you're still the love of my life, regardless."

i pulled josh into a passionate kiss that he returned. the two of us then got up and he slid the ring on my finger. it was a beautiful diamond that sparkled in the light.

"so we're getting married." i smiled. josh kissed my cheek and nodded. "i love you, josh."

"and i love you, y/n."