Lost In Our Imagination 2: Not As Planned

39 - The Real Thing

September 2018

Katie P.O.V

It's been just over a week since Brad and I had the argument and since then we have barely spoke. He is still staying with Connor and Megan stays with me most nights too. The only time I've seen him is the other night at Livi and James's apartment when we all had dinner together, we left together but as soon as we were out the building we went our separate ways. It's killing me to not have him to talk to and I miss him so much but I know that for us to completely sort something out we have to spend some time apart. Even though it seems stupid considering what it was over but with the history of arguments we have, now even the littlest thing will bring up something huge, I hate that we are like that but that's what makes us, us. And we come back stronger after it which I suppose is the one good thing that comes out of all of this.

"Are you sure it's alright that I go to see Connor today, I mean I'm sure he wouldn't mind if I stayed here" Megan said to me as she walked into my room.

"Yes Meg I'm sure, you go have fun I'll be fine here" I replied.

"Okay but if you need anything you let me know"

"I will, stop worrying about me I'm perfectly fine"

"I know you are but I just feel bad leaving you here on your own" she sighed as she sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Megan I've really appreciated you being here for me for the past few days"

"You know I'll always be here if you need me"

"I do know that but now you need to go see Connor and spend some time with him"

"I suppose it has been a few days"

"Exactly, now go and I'll see you later" I said, pushing her slightly so she stood up off the bed.

"Okay thank you" Megan smiled before walking out my room.

"Katie" I heard her shout up the stairs a few seconds later.

"What?" I asked walking out onto the landing to see Tristan stood by the front door, "oh hey Tris"

"Hey Katie" he replied running his hand through his hair, "can we talk?"

"Yeah of course" I said as I made my way down the stairs, "are you okay?" I asked as I sat down on the sofa and he sat beside me.

"Just a bit tired that's all"

"I'll see you guys later" Megan smiled and we said goodbye before she left the apartment.

"Yeah you look it Tris" I said replying to his earlier statement.

"Well that's because I only got about half an hours sleep last night"

"How come?"

"Because you were right" he shrugged.

"What do you mean?"

"I thought about what you said about Zoe and now I don't know how I never noticed it before. She's trying to control me and I've been letting her"

"Tris when I said those things I never meant to make you hate her" I said as I felt a wave of guilt go through me at the thought of what I said making him hate the one person who at the minute is making him happy.

"No I know that and I don't hate her, I don't think I ever could I just don't think I like her as much as I thought I did" he replied looking slightly disappointed.

"What made you realise?" I asked out of curiosity.

"I began to see her as the controlling person that you saw. I thought back to all the times I'd wanted to come see you guys and how she would always find an excuse for me to stay with her or even if I was just going out to the shops she would have to come. It's like she doesn't trust me, she treats me like a 5 year old" he explained, shaking his head "the final straw was last night. I went out with a few friends from back home who were in London and I got back around 1 am to find Zoe sat on the sofa, of my apartment which she now apparently has a key for. She then had a massive go at me saying that I should've constantly texted her so she knew I was okay and that it was unexceptable for me to be out that late. I mean I was with friends who I hadn't seen in over a year and now she was trying to tell me I couldn't see them. I lost it after that, everything I'd been holding in came out and at first she seemed taken back but then she retaliated and this went on for what seemed like hours before I threw her out and then I couldn't sleep because I was so angry that she would say those things and also that I'd missed that she'd been saying those things the entire time we'd been together but it was only now that I was properly hearing them"

"Tristan I.." I began to say but I stopped because I wasn't too sure what it was exactly that I wanted or needed to say.

"You don't need to say anything, I should of listened to you the minute this started involving me not seeing you guys and I'm sorry that I didn't"

"Tris it's fine, we knew that you would never do anything intentionally"

"But it's not fine, I got so caught up in a relationship I don't even want to be in anymore that my friends started becoming second best and that's not okay"

"But you know the truth now and that's all that matters" I said in attempt to reassure him "and if you do want to be with Zoe anymore just end things"

"Don't you think I've tried" he replied laughing slightly "I told her last night but she refused to listen, she said I was just saying it in the moment out of anger but I wasn't"

"So she wouldn't let you break up with her?"

"It's ridiculous isn't it and after speaking too.." Tristan said trailing off which meant I knew he was talking about Harriet. Something changes when he mentions her and it's the complete opposite to what its like when he talks about Zoe.

"How is she?" I asked.

"She's good" he sighed "she thinks she might finish her course early but she said not to keep my hopes up"

"Does she know about...?"

"No, I didn't see the point in telling her when the minute I heard her voice everything I'd ever felt for Zoe just disappeared and I knew that by the time Harriet came back, Zoe would be part of my past and hopefully won't change a thing between us"

"I'm sure it won't" I smiled, "do you know if she is in a rela..."

"She didn't mention it" he said cutting me off, I could see that just the thought of it upset him "I mean if she is then I'm happy for her but I'm still hoping that there might be something still between us"

"Tris there will always be something between you two. No matter how far away you too are at the minute, it don't change anything and when she comes back.."

"If she comes back!"

"She is coming back Tris and when she does I know that things will pick up where they left off for you two"

"You think so? Your not just saying that?" Tristan asked me.

"You two are meant to be and you'll figure that out the minute she comes back and you see her again"

"I knew that we were the minute she left and I've hated myself everyday since for letting her walk away" Tristan shrugged and right then at that moment I knew the old Tris was back, that Zoe was no longer part of his life, well he didn't want her to be, and he was going to do whatever it takes to make sure he doesn't let Harriet walk away again. Those two are the real thing, and I've never been so sure of anything in my life, and neither have they.