Lost In Our Imagination 2: Not As Planned

57 - I Dont Want That

March 2019

Katie P.O.V

'Maybe a little time apart is what you both needed' I told myself, 'he'll come back eventually'. The truth was that half the time I did want him back, I wanted to see him and tell him that I was sorry and I was willing to look past all of this. But then the other half of the time I hated him, I hated him for what he did to me and for lying to my face for almost 6 years. I'd convinced myself that I never wanted to see him ever again. Maybe it was okay to think that because it was the sensible thing to do, for both of us, or maybe I should do the mature thing, the thing that would be best for our child.

"Katie are you even listening?" Livi asked waving her hand in front of my face, pulling me out of my daydream and reminding me that before I zoned out she was telling me about something.

"Umm, no I wasn't sorry" I replied, "I've just been a little distracted lately"

"You've been more than a little distracted, I don't know what's wrong with you at the minute!"

"Nothing's wrong with me, I'm fine" I snapped.

"Well you don't seem fine to me" Livi sighed before walking out the office.

As soon as the door shut I slumped over my desk with my head in my hands. I hadn't told Livi yet, I wanted to but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I think if I did it would make this all more real than it already is and although telling her might actually help, I think this is something that Brad and I need to deal with on our own.

***

"Why didn't you tell me?" Livi shouted storming into the office about half an hour later.

"Tell you what?" I asked confused. Livi didn't say anything she just stepped aside and Emily was stood behind her, she just smiled and waved before mouthing sorry to me.

"Livi I.." I began to say but I couldn't find the words to finish my sentence. Instead I leant back onto my chair and ran my hand through my hair.

"Why didn't you talk to me?" Livi asked sitting down opposite me, her face going from angry to full of concern.

"Because I didn't know what to say" I shrugged.

"I could've helped you, I can still help you"

"Help me with what exactly? Come to terms with the fact that my husband has a child with someone else. I don't think anyone can help me be okay with that"

"Well you could at least let me try" she smiled.

"Thank you Livi, honestly" I smiled in reply, "but I think for once I need to do this alone"

"You sure?"

"Yes I'm sure"

"Okay, well let me know if you change your mind" she nodded before getting up and walking out the office.

"Umm hey Emily, what can I do for you?" I asked her as she walked into the office.

"Well I was just wondering if you'd spoken to Brad yet?" She replied and I laughed slightly.

"What, were you hoping we'd broken up already so you can try your luck with him?"

"Is that the sort of person you think I am?"

"Well for the short time that you were in my life you didn't exactly make the best lasting impression"

"Okay so maybe I didn't but no Katie I'm not interested in Brad, in fact I'm here for the opposite actually"