Lost In Our Imagination 2: Not As Planned

43 - Never Too Soon

November 2018

Katie P.O.V

"We definitely need to get all of this" I said to Brad as we walked through to one of the show rooms in ikea for babies and it was the cutest thing I've ever seen.

"I don't think we need it all" Brad laughed, "but some of it is nice"

"I'll just write down a few things then" I replied as I started writing down the name and product number of the majority of the items in the room.

Brad and I had come to town to get as much as we could for our little girls room. We had 2 spare rooms in the house, 1 was fully decorated and used as a guest room for it the others come to stay and the other room is practically empty with the exception of the old desk and some cardboard boxes. Basically it needed to be completely redone so we had to get paint, wallpaper and furniture. So far we had got some paint and wallpaper from homebase and were now in ikea to get everything else.

"You don't think it's a bit early to get all this do you?" I asked Brad, "I still have 5 months to go"

"No of course not, before we know it those months will fly by so don't you think it's better that we get it done now and we can just keep adding to it over the next couple of months" he replied.

"I suppose your right, I just don't want to jinx it, something bad could still happen" I sighed.

"Katie look at me" Brad said placing his hands on my shoulders, "nothing bad is going to happen okay, it's all going to be fine. We are going to buy whatever you want for the room and in a few months time it'll be the place where our little girl will sleep and play and scream in the middle of the night when she's hungry or upset or needs her nappy changed"

"The thought of that makes me so excited but it also terrifies me" I smiled in reply.

"It terrifies me too but every person feels like that before they become a parent. Over time we'll get used to it and I know that we are going to be great at it"

"You think so?"

"I know so" Brad smiled before leaning forward and kissing me.

"In that case I think we need to get everything to make this room perfect"

"Whatever you think is best" Brad laughed holding his hands up, "I'm leaving this one to you"

We were in ikea for a few more hours and left with about 100 flat pack boxes as well as blankets, cushions, lamps, baskets and a lot more that we probably didn't need but oh well. I'm not entirely sure how we managed to fit it all in the car but we did, I suppose having a large car helped. On the drive back we realised that there was no way the two of us were going to be able to get this all up to the house without taking about 500 trips and I wasn't really in much shape to be carrying large boxes so we rung Tristan and James and asked them to come help so we were meeting them there.

"Jesus Christ did you buy the whole shop?" James asked as we pulled up and got out the car.

"Apparently it's all essentials" Brad replied sarcastically.

"It is essentials" I argued, "I want this room to be perfect"

"And it will be" Brad smiled, "but first we have to get all this upstairs"

"Let's get this over with" Tristan sighed as he opened the boot of the car.

***

"You don't think your doing this a bit soon do you?" Tris asked me as we walked up the stairs to the apartment for the 5th time already and I just laughed, "what's so funny?" He added.

"It's just that that's what I thought at first but Brad reminded me that the next few months will fly by so it's better that we are prepared" I replied.

"Well your being very prepared because some people don't sort it out until the baby is like a few months old"

"Yeah but then you'd never get it done because your priority is with the baby so you just wouldn't have time to decorate a whole room"

"That's a good point"

"Plus the room is empty at the minute so by decorating it this whole thing will become more real"

"Wait until it's born and you never get any sleep" Tristan laughed, "then it'll feel real"

"So I'll take that as a hint that you won't be willing to baby sit"

"Do you really think that having me baby sit is a good idea?"

"I think you'll be great with kids"

"Tell you what, I'll baby sit once it's stop screaming in the middle of the night"

"I'll keep that in mind" I laughed.

"So how are things with you?" I asked him.

"Is that your subtle way of asking me if I'm still with Zoe?"

"Maybe?"

"Well to answer your question yes I am but I don't want to be" He sighed, "I haven't seen her since we had that argument, we've spoken on the phone but we always end up arguing and she still won't take any notice of the fact that I'm trying to break up with her"

"I'm sure things will figure themselves out Tris" I replied in attempt to reassure him.

"I hope so because I don't know how much longer I can put up with this"

"Eventually she'll get tired of trying to change your mind and will realise that it's for the best"

"Yeah I'm not to sure she quite sees it as I do but I don't care because I'm not happy"

"But you will be" I smiled.

"Once I'm rid of her then yes I will" Tris replied laughing slightly.

After about an hour we managed to get all the stuff out the car and into the apartment. Tristan and James had also stayed to put together the cot and chest of draws we'd got but then left us to do the rest.

"Is that okay there?" Brad asked me as he shifted the canvas he was currently hanging on the wall.

"To the left a bit more" I replied.

"Better?"

"Perfect" I smiled.

"Somehow we've managed to make this room like pretty amazing" Brad said as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

"Yeah we have" I smiled in reply. The room wasn't finished yet because we had to wait for the wardrobe and obviously adding all the finishing touches but for now it looks pretty great. We didn't want to go the typical pink so we used lots of different pastel colours instead so it was still quite girly.

"This is still so crazy" Brad said laughing slightly as we sat down on the small sofa in what will be our daughters room.

"Yeah it is" I sighed looking down and placing a hand on my small bump.

"Katie what's wrong?" Brad asked placing his hand on top of mine.

"It's just..I just wish my parents could be here at times like this" I replied as I felt the tears starting to form in my eyes. Brad didn't say anything at first, he just pulled me into his side and kissed the top of my head.

"I can't begin to imagine what it's like Katie, I don't know how your feeling but what I do know is that they would of been proud of you, even though they can't physically be here they are still with you no matter what and they love you"

"I miss them so much" I said but it came out as a whisper as I tried to hold back the tears, "it's been so long and so much has changed"

"I know Katie, and I know I'm not as good but I'm here for you and I'd like to think they'd be happy to know I was the one looking out for you, that's if they liked me"

"They would of loved you" I smiled.

"And I'm sure I would of loved them too"