SONG COUSINS (Mino and Gunhee)

Chapter 20: The Secret

On our way to Taehyun's room I started feeling a bit nervous. Nervous because I think I could fall for him and I already have a boyfriend. And Mino was a nice guy and I wouldn't want to hurt him. But Taehyun seemed like a fun guy and I wanted to get to know him more. So we could just hang out with eachother. There is nothing wrong with being friends...

Taehyun's room was big. The walls were a light gray. The floor was a pretty dark wood. It had two Full size beds. One bed had a dark blue comforter and the other bed had a dark red comforter. There were two closets, a desk, a bookshelf, two bean bags, and a big plasma tv that looked to be about 55 inches. And there was also a bathroom.

Taehyun grabbed onto my hand and pulled me to one of the beds. My face became red. "Why don't we study at the desk instead?" I ask him. "Why? Are you nervous? You never been in a bed with a guy before?" he leaned in closer to me. I backed away and he started laughing. "Relax. We're doing our lessons here because the bed is bigger. And the desk would be too uncomfortable for two people." he said. "Oh. Okay. But who do you share the room with?" "I share the room with Mino. The red bed is mine and the blue bed is Mino's." "And what about the others?" I ask. "The room next door is shared by Jinwoo and Seunghoon. And Seungyoon gets his own room because he is the leader but his room is a bit smaller." "Oh okay. But I'll be sitting in my boyfriend's bed for the lesson. Its across from your bed anyways. And this way you can see me well and how I move my lips to pronounce things." I stood up and went to Mino's bed. "The lip movements are important in learning languages?" Taehyun asked. "Yeah. Didn't you know that? Thats why when people are deaf they read lips." "Interesting fact. But then wouldn't it be more effective to learn lips to lips?" "What do you mean?" "Let me show you" He stood up and put his face in front of mine. Then he...he...KISSED ME! The kiss was so sweet and soft. His lips were like heaven. I started kissing him back. And after a few seconds he pulled away. "Would tounge to tounge be more effective in learning languages? Lets find out." he said and went back to my lips and he put his tounge in my mouth and so did I. We went on for about 20 seconds until I pulled out. "I'm sorry Taehyun, but I can't do this." "Do what? Kiss? But you just did." "I know I just did but what I mean is that I can't do this anymore. So we won't ever kiss again." "Why? Because of Mino?" "Yes, because of Mino. I'm dating him and I like him." "But do you love him? And have you even kissed him yet? Or does he even make you feel the way I make you feel?" "Well I can't say I love him because we just started dating. But I do really like him. He's a nice guy and I don't want to hurt him. And no, I haven't kissed him yet so that makes me feel even more bad that I have kissed you yet I haven't even kissed him. But what do you mean about him making me feel the same way you do?" "You think Mino is a nice guy? And you don't want to hurt him? Well guess what. Mino has hurt many girls before. And for what? For his own selfishness, just so he can hide his own secret. And he thinks he can just go on with his charade but I don't think so, at least not with you. I won't let him. I don't want him to hurt you like he hurt her. I like you and I think I could even fall in love with you if I get to know you more. And what I meant when I asked if he makes you feel the same way as I do is if he makes you feel like a woman. Like something he desires and thirsts for. Something he needs." "You are confusing me Taehyun. I don't know what you mean by all this. Speak clearly. What do you mean about him hurting many girls? And what about Mino's secret?" "Mino could never love you. He has never been able to love any of the girls he has dated, and that is how he ends up hurting them. And the worst thing is that just when the girls start getting suspicious about him, he breaks up with them. Because he doesn't want anyone finding out his secret. But one of those girls he dated did find out about his secret. And you know what she did? She committed suicide! She said she really loved Mino and that she couldn't live without him so she killed herself! And I loved that girl! And I don't want to lose another chance at love. Because before you came along I wasn't even able to look at another girl but you made me feel different. And I have only known you for a day but I already like you and I feel like I could even fall in love with you. So you should leave Mino before he hurts you cuz you won't ever be able to get anywhere with him. And give me a chance cuz I could treat you like Mino will never be able to treat you. I know you like me. I see it in your eyes. I felt it in the kiss. You like me." "Why can't Mino ever love me? How do you know that? How are you so sure that Mino will end up hurting me? Because from what I've seen so far Mino has been one of the nicest guys I have ever met. And he gave me the most beautiful and perfect date ever. So how can a guy like that hurt me? I feel like I'll be the one hurting him more than he hurts me." "I know that he cannot love you because I know his secret. He thinks no one knows his secret but I do. And the only reason I know his secret is because that girl I used to love wrote me a note before she killed herself and in that note she wrote the reason why she committed suicide. And that reason is Mino's secret. And if I tell you Mino's secret I know you won't believe me. I haven't told anyone Mino's secret because I know no one will believe me. He is that good of an actor. But this is why I'm warning you. Just you watch over Mino carefully and you'll see that something is not right about him. But just don't fall in love with him because he will never be able to return those feelings and you'll just end up hurt. And once you find out his secret you can come to me. I'll be waiting for you to return the feelings I have for you. But for the time being I'll just have to make you fall in love with me. So just give me a chance and for now at least be my friend. Spend some time with me and get to know me. I promise I'm not a bad guy." "I don't know Taehyun. I do like you but I'll have to think about it. So just give me some time to think. And I will be watching over Mino to see if what you say is true." "Okay. I'll give you some time but please don't take too long. All I ask from you is to give me a chance. Get to know me and then you can decide if you want to get in a relationship with me. And I won't care if I end up getting hurt because all I want is chance at love. Just a chance is enough for me. I want some warmth back into my heart because it has been too cold for too long. So I hope you can become my warmth, even if its only for a while." "I'll let you know my decision in a few days. For now I need to see how I feel about Mino."

I left the room.

Once I got into the living room all the guys were staring at me. "Where were you?" Mino asked. "I was with Taehyun but I have to go now. I'll talk to you later. Bye." I hugged him and left.