Always and Forever [Book 3]

"Happy"

Rachel's POV
I wake up and I notice that I am in my room in the house in New Orleans. I get up not remembering how I got here. I put on my clothes and walk downstairs. I search around the house but there's no one here. I grab some bread and get outside. I look around first but then I start walking towards the Bayou. I enter the woods and when I get deep enough I start taking off my clothes. Then I close my eyes and I transform into a wolf. After I'm turned into a wolf I run free in the wild. I feel the ground on my paws and the air on my face and I like the feeling. I stop running and i look at the place around me. Something's wrong. Something has changed. I turn back to human and with a snap of my fingers I put on my clothes again. I start walking but I suddenly hear something behind me. I turn my head but there's no one there. Only trees. I keep walking and I hear again the same noise. It sounds like something is following me slowly.

Rachel:Who's there?

I walk backwards and I hear the same noise but this time from underneath me. I look on the ground and I widen my eyes. I put my knees on the ground and I touch softly with my fingers the frozen leaves of the flowers. I look in front of me and i see a frozen path ending under my feet. I take a few more steps back and the path follows. Again, more steps but this time faster. I keep looking at the path until I trip over a root. When I fall I put my left hand on the ground and I raise the other to get my balance, but when I do, the frozen path turns into a fiery path. I look at the fire. I close my right fist and the fire disappears. I open it and the fire appears again. I close it, the fire disappears and I get up. I wipe the dirt off my body and I keep walking.

I arrive at the lake. I look at the water and the only thing I want to think is the swimming with the marine animals. I take a few steps in the lake but when I do, the water avoids me. I go deeper but the water has made a circle around me. I walk towards and the circle follows like it doesn't want me to touch the water. I roll my eyes and go back to the shore. I sit down thinking.

Rachel:There's something wrong with me.

I didn't realize that I said that out loud until I hear the voice.

??? :No there's not.

I turn around and I see Damien looking at me smiling.

Damien:I'm happy to see you again here.

Rachel :Aha.

Damien:Hey Rach. What's going on?

Rachel :Nothing.

Damien:You say it's nothing but I can see the opposite.

Rachel:I said it's nothing!

I stand up and walk away from him but he grabs my wrist.

Damien:Rachel please. Talk to me.

Rachel:Damien let me go.

Damien:What happened to you? You've changed.

Rachel:Things are different now. You can't tell me that they're not.

I pull my hand away from him while my eyes flash purple. Then I turn around and walk away. Tears start falling from my cheeks. I notice the weather. It's cloudy. I wipe another tear. Suddenly it starts raining. I start running to find shelter but now the water has already touched my skin. I will turn into a mermaid in any second. I keep running for a while and I notice that I'm still human. I look at my hands and my hair and I see that they're dry. The rain is around me. I have a circle protecting me for some reason. I look on the ground thinking. The rain stops and then I look at the sky. It's still cloudy. I sit on a log and i wrap my legs with my hands. I close my eyes so I can go back. So I can remember the time I arrived at the galde. My friends. Before we leave the maze. That was when everything changed. I remember every single one of them. Alby, Chuck, Newt, Thomas, Minho and yes even Gally, and the only the only girl who stood by me. Teresa. The others may not liked her but I did. She did was the only girl there. That's what I want only to remember. Not the time before that. Not the people before that. Not my family, not Lucien, not Irene, not Damien. When I do they only bring pain. And I don't want that. When I was with them there might was one single moment of happiness. Only one.