Always and Forever [Book 3]

They Said "Family"

Rachel's POV
I return home and I see my family in the living room. They all look at me with a sad look on their faces.

Rachel:What?

My question sounds like I don't care for what's happening. I feel both sorry and suspicious.

Katnice :Rachel we need to talk.

Rachel:About what?

Katnice:You.

Rachel:What about me?

Freya: Sit down first and we'll tell you.

I sit on the couch. My mom and Freya sit next to me. The others are standing, listening closely.

Katnice :We know that since you returned from that place... I don't know how to describe it.

Rachel: WCKD

Katnice : What?

Rachel: It was called WCKD. They always said WCKD is good

Klaus: Why would anyone put the word WCKD and good in the same phrase?

Freya: Can we focus on the main topic? Please?

Klaus nods and mom and Freya look at me again.

Katnice : As I said, we know that since you returned from W-C-K-D you've been having second thoughts of coming here. You decided to come and we don't want to push you away from us.

Rachel: Mom. Speak faster. Where are you going with this?

Freya: When you were two years old I casted a spell on you with the permission of the whole family.

I look in the living room table with eyes shocked.

Rachel: What kind of spell?

That phrase came out through my teeth. They all look at each other with an anxious look.

Freya: Well you must understand Rachel that first born Mikaelsons -

Rachel: I said. What kind of spell?

Freya: A spell that blocks you from using your powers

Rachel : What?!

Freya: The Mikaelsons were witches at the beggining. The first born Mikaelsons have a great amount of magic in their blood and as the bloodline continues the magic increases. So I casted a spell to block most of your powers so they wouldn't kill you.

Rachel: Well that was the worst decision you could ever made.

Rebekah : Rachel. We did it to protect you.

Rachel: What? Pro- POTECT ME?

I get up angry.

Rachel: You didn't protect me! You destroyed me. You don't care about family. You care only for you not to get hurt. If you hadn't blocked my magic I could have learned to use it so it wouldn't kill me!

Katnice: We were scared.

Rachel: Huh. Scared. A weird emotion. Do you know how many times I got scared? When I saved you from Lucien!

Klaus: You didn't save us.

Rachel : Of course I did. You were about to die and he was about to finish you off. Then I got scared! Or the other time? Let's remember the time with the dark hourglass. When the dark magic entered my organism and almost killed me. When I almost killed you! Yes you found a way to save me but the one who really saved me was Hope. She found me and gave me courage.

We hear someone knocking the door and then Damien walks in.

Rachel: Oh great. Come. You can listen too. When Irene died I was the one who got scared. Yes Damien helped me but then he abandoned me. I was so scared. Well that wasn't scary enough so I had to live through hell. I spent, even I don't know how many time I spent in that hospital, days or weeks or even months. I fell in a Coma. Then after I woke up someone kidnapped me and I spent 6 months on a place with a woman and people who called me Rachel Paige. I lost my friends there. Were you there to help me? No! Instead you preferred to stay here and keep saying that I chose to leave my family. Me! You really thought that I'd leave like that? That I'd live a note on a hospital bed. Is that what Family means to you? You keep saying Always and Forever and I keep fighting to see it. But I don't. I only see people who have given up on life. People who abandon their daughter,.. niece,... girlfriend... Do you know how many times I was this close to death? How many times I ' got scared? You don't. You know nothing. You can't get in my head and see what I've been through. And I won't let anyone do that again.

Katnice : Rachel we were scared. When you left the hospital we were scared of losing you, we wer-

Rachel: No. No! If you were really scared you'd try to find me. Not assume that I left. Cause I didn't. But I might will. If I can't see what family means, nothing will be able to keep me here.

Klaus: We've showed you what family means. All these years -

Rachel:Stop trying to deny what I say. You can't. You could have showed me what family means when I disappeared. You could have searched for me. And when I was little, oh when I was little, you kept me locked up in this house. Just to protect me.

That word I actually spitted it out. I take a deep breath

Rachel: I can't take it anymore. This pain.

I put my one hand on my head and the other one on my stomach and tears start falling from my eyes. We hear outside thunder and rain.

Freya: Rachel calm down.

Rachel: No! Don't tell me to calm down! You've always been saying that. But I want it out. I want the pain to leave. I want it to get better.

I put my knees on the ground and my mom sits next to me

Rachel :Stay away from me!

I start sobbing and crying. The pain is not leaving.

Rachel: Why isn't anything getting better? No thing's getting better, it is only getting worse. It's like I'm drowning in my own head. I can't do this anymore. I need it all to stop for two seconds. I just need it to stop. I need everything to stop... I just need everything to stop...

I squeeze my eyes and I close myself into the darkness. And I stay there. The sounds around me stop and I stay there. In the darkness.