Just Let Me Love You

Two - The Reason Behind

Christian Harrison Romano

"Great! Now I'm stuck in detention with you! Grr!" She grunted. Sobra siyang nanggigil.

I stood there amused. Ang cute niya mafrustrate, nanggigil. Absent mindedly, napangiti ako habang pinapanood siyang padabog mag mop.

Nilingon niya ako with that furious look at mas lalo lang akong natawa. She's so adorable.

"What are you laughing at? Excuse me, I was talking to you. If you're laughing at me because I look like nuts talking to nothing, well HI! I am talking to you!"

Nagkibit balikat nalang ako, "Okay."

"Ugh!" tumalikod uli siya sakin at nagpatuloy sa pagmop ng sahig nitong gym, where we were sent for detention. Good thing pagmop lang ang sanction.

"I really hate you. You up-to-no-good bastard. You jerk. Such a big asshole! Grr! Nakakainis!" narinig kong mga pabulong niyang angil na nag-eecho sa buong gym.

Honestly, I don't get why she hates me so much. I mean, ano namang masamang ginawa ko? Well, bukod sa mga pang-aasar at pangungulit ko sa kanya, na I think naman is not bad, there's nothing graver I did to her.

I continued mopping before I spoke to make this conversation look casual. "I know I put you in this situation, and I'm sorry," I told her. Tumigil naman siya sa paglinis, and I think, took time to listen to me. "I just thought that this is the best way for me to get you to talk to me."

Lumingon siya sakin. She tss-ed. "In detention, really." She rolled her eyes. "Good job." She sarcastically commented.

I sighed. "No." I answered. "In a situation where you can't run away from me."

Tumalikod na uli siya sakin probably thinking that this is all nonsense. "Whatever," she said as she waved her hand dismissively.

"I loathe you," she suddenly said.

"I know," may tono ng obviousness yung boses ko. "Duh," bulong ko, more like to the floor rather than to her.

And then silence. Walang nagsasalita. I thought of teasing her, since medyo light naman yung mood between us.

"Yeah, but just so you know, I loathe you too. Ha, there!" I retorted like a child who caught his playmate during Hide-and-Seek.

She gasped and turned towards me, eyes wide. "I loathe you first!" Hindi ko maiwasang matawa sa isip ko because of her very furious look.

"No, I loathe you first" I said, marking authority.

Mukha siyang may sasabihin pa, so I raised an eyebrow at her. "Fine!" she finally said.

"Fine!" I answered back. Tapos tumalikdo na ako.

Hindi ko na napigilan yung pagyugyog ng balikat ko dahil sa sobrang tawa, mabuti nalang walang tunog kundi masusugod ako nung amazonang yun.

She's like the girl version of me. Everything I do, she also can, or maybe even better. She says she wants to beat me. Hindi niya lang alam, matagal niya na kong natalo, mula nung nakuha niya yung puso ko. Shit, I sound so gay. Ew.

But, it's the sad reality of my life. I fell for her, she feels the exact opposite for me, and now I'm in huge shit because I've already fallen too deep.

Unti-unti, umaatras ako papalapit sa kanya. Nang maramdaman ko na na medyo malapit na ko sa kanya, I broke the silence. "Crim," I called out.

But she didn't answer. "Crim," I called out again at medyo napalingon ako.

"What do you want?" mataray niyang sagot. Good, andyan pa talaga siya. So I went back mopping. But tumigil din ako.

Suddenly, naging seryoso yung mukha ko. At naramdaman kong natigilan siya sa naging tanong ko. "Why do hate me?" Diretso lang din ang tingin ko pero ramdam ko yung tension na nabuo.

"Why do you always push me away? Why do you shut me out?" I shrugged and turned to look at her. "Why do keep on trying to bring me down? Why do you desperately want to defeat me? Why, Crim?" Same with her desperation, I was thirsty for her answers.

After a while, liningon niya ako, not surprised na ang lapit ko na sa kanya. Halatang irritated, siguro dahil makulit ako.

"You wouldn't understand," she said.

Napatawa nalang ako sa sarili ko. As if that answer will make me stop.

Inilapit ko pa lalo yung mukha ko sa kanya but she didn't budge. I smelled her perfume, sweet powdery fragrance, just my type of ladies' scent.

I looked straight at her eyes, past her large glasses that fits her really well, to make my plea more genuine, and more me. "Make me."

She backed off a bit pero magkalapit parin kami.

Huminga siya ng malalim at tumingin ng malalim sakin. "Letting you be above me, means letting you love me."

I was dumb struck with what she said. How can she think of things like that? Na kaya ko pinipilit na maging mas magaling sa kanya, is to make her under me? To make me superior over her? Unbelievable.

"And I won't let that happen, Romano." Napatingin ako sa kanya with that look of shock and astonishment. "Ever in my entire life. That's why I want to get above you, so you can stop indirectly manipulating me just because you're greater than me. That's why I want to defeat you."

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And, oww. That hurt.

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