Just Let Me Love You

Forty Four - One Step Closer

At dahil pasko naman ay ito nalang ang naisip kong gift senyo! Love you all! Merry Christmas!

Beige Crimona Samaniego

It's been 2 years since college started. And yes, college is indeed very much stressful than high school.

I thought high school was the worst. But college was hell. I know I'm just a sophomore, still not an upperclassman, but dang. Maybe our professors don't realize that we take subjects too other than theirs.

Yeah I had new friends. But I still kept in tact with the gang. Those dudes are just too hard to let go.

I still live at our house with Mommy and Daddy and of course Yvan. It's just a taxi away from my university so it's not much hassle traveling from school to home. And I'm used to riding the taxi since Dad wanted us to be independent as young as we were in high school so he let us commute going to and from school.

But on other ocassions, Yvan drives for me. And I like days like that.

I'm in my first sem already for my second year and things are going really good. I'm loving college actually. Who would've thought I'd be loving to study this much?

When I turned 18, many things changed. My parents were more lenient on me. They were even the ones asking me to go out on friday nights with my friends. They allowed me to drink, but kuya didn't. Even though he already flew for New York, andyan naman si Yvan. It's just like kuya never left. He left shortly after I've started college.

The following month would be Ice's birthday already.

Yes, he still exists. I didn't pretty much expected he'd be serious with seeing me everyday. That would be insane, wouldn't it? But I guess this jerk really is insane.

He always makes a way to see me. If not on mornings, he'll come at night knocking on my door from the balcony. I don't really think it's necessary for him to do those but he said he wants that. Actually it does seem kind of helpful for me. I took him as tutor. Haha!

I think I'm falling too deeply in like with him already. He hasn't stopped courting me, instead, he became more persistent towards it. And I appreciate how patient he is towards me.

Today I am meeting with Robbie since she has no class for today and I have no more classes for the day.

We also had a new hang out. It's called Heaven's Blue. A café too that plays live music. And costumers could do readings there from their own made literary pieces. There're only a few costumers here that's why we chose this place.

"Are you planning to execute the plan the next month?" She asked after she scooped some yogurt from her parfait.

Yes. I prepared a plan. I'm planning to answer Ice. Plano palang naman.

I've prayed this over a lot of times that the heavens enlighten me to truly identify what I really feel.

I looked out the window and sighed. "Hopefully. Yeah, next month. What do you think?" I turned to look at her.

"I think it's cool. And I'm happy for you," she smiled.

I smiled back.

But before I do that, I need to talk to someone very important to Ice.

"Are you coming with me to Cavite?"

She nodded. "Yeah, when do you plan to go?"

"This sunday, are you free?"

She nodded. "I'm always free for you, babe." I laughed. Have I mentioned already that Robbie is my lesbian lover? Note the sarcasm.

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We are on our way now to Cavite. We just took the bus because neither of us has an auto yet and Robbie's family car is only limited to rides from and to the university. So we had no choice.