Heartbreak (TodoDeku)

Chapter 17: The Pack's Demise

"Hey Zuku!" I turn to see my two pack members walking towards me. I say my hellos back and introduce them to Shoto's mother, Rei. They exchange pleasantries before Shin directs his attention to me.
"Can we talk to you in private?" I furrow my eyebrows in confusion as I watch Kami fidget with his fingers, not meeting my gaze.
"Of course, let go back to our cabin." I say, standing up. I wave goodbye to Rei and apologize for the sudden departure. We walk back to the cabin, both of them extremely quiet. The only sounds are coming from Okami as she wiggles in Shin's arms. They follow me inside but hesitate and look at each other. I sit, watching as Shinso puts Okami on the ground with a sack doll to play with. They sit across from me, looking at each other as they have a silent conversation.
"What is wrong?" I ask, I can't help but feel concerned as I smell the small amounts of distress leaking out of the omega in front of me.
"Zuku," Hitoshi begins as he looks at me. "As you know, Denki and I have made friends within the Todoroki pack." I nod, waiting for him to continue. He hesitates as he looks to his mate, grabbing his hand.
Kami takes a breath and continues for his mate, his voice wavering as he speaks. "W-we have set roots here. And with Okimi, we don't know if we w-want to return to our old village and leave the Todoroki pack. We have established ourselves here."
I look at the floor below me. I don't think I can look at them as I try to understand what they are saying. I can feel a lump in my throat as I wait for them to continue.
"Zuku, we would never abandon you or our pack. We just don't see how we would rebuild our pack with just us, especially since we are the only ones mated." There is an awkward pause as the two wolves try to gather their taught. "With Okami, we want to have a pack that can support us and the Superior Beta has invited us to join the Todoroki pack." I can hear a slight plea in Hitoshi's voice as he says the last part.
I can't help but feel dumb founded as it clicks what exactly they are trying to say. I feel my eyes staring to tear up as I try to compose myself. Is this really what is happening? Are my worst fears coming true hours after I express them? They want to leave this pack and join Todoroki. I can't blame them, but part of me feels betrayed.
Don't they know what will happen if they break the bonds between us? They must if they are hesitant to ask. They truly believe that that cost is worth it if they can join a pack that can provide for them. I am a failure, not even my friends want to stay with me. They would rather I become feral than have to stay with me as their Superior.
I deserve this, I brought misfortune upon my pack. I haven't been a true leader at all. I will take this fate, I deserve it. It is only fair that I allow them to live a life of peace with how much I have put them through.
I nod my head as I look up at them, keeping my face as blank as possible.
"Then as my last decision as your Superior Omega, I grant you permission to join Todoroki's pack. You must look out for Okami, and I don't blame you for choosing to set roots here. Thank you for allowing me these few months to be your Superior." I bow my head in respect. I can't help but allow the tears to fall.
"Zuku." Kami is crying as he leans forward, pulling me up into a hug. I already feel our pack bond withering away as their decision becomes final.
"When will the Todoroki pack's tradition of pack bonding be?" I ask while pulling away, not looking at them. I can't after knowing they would willingly choose this.
"This evening, I know it is soon. We just didn't know how to tell you, we didn't want to hurt you." Shinso explains as he places a hand on my back. So soon, I have a few hours until this bond is gone. I nod my head, standing.
"If you will excuse me, I have a lot on my mind and I wish to be alone." I look to the floor as they stand, picking up their pup and walk towards the door. I notice the smile on Kami's face as he looks to his mate.
"We will see you in a few ours for our ceremony." Kami says. I nod in agreement as they make their way out of the cabin.
I fall to my knees when the door is fully closed. I can't hold back the pain as I realize what this means. I have led my pack to its demise. I cry as I cling to the pack bond, it is so frail now that I have confirmed their departure. My wolf whimpers as we stare at the wall, the depression already setting in.
I can't help but wonder if I had been there to save Kacchan that my pack would have had a chance, if I would have had a chance. If I would have been a better and stronger Superior, being able to provide for my pack's needs.
I failed them, I failed as I allowed Yagi, Kacchan and the rest of my pack to die. I was never suitable to lead, of course Shinso and Kami would want to join a new pack. A stronger pack, one led by a truly strong Superior. A Superior that can actually perform his role and protect his pack. I am just a weak omega, how could I believe that I was suitable for this? I knew I was never as strong or smart as Yagi.