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❝𝙰𝚂𝙷𝚃𝚁𝙰𝚈❞ ———————————————————————
i'll use you as a warning sign that if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind and i'll use you as a focal point so i don't lose sight of what i want and i've moved further than i thought i could but i missed you more than i thought i would and i'll use you as a warning sign that if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind
I never thought i'd end up dating Ashtray. It was unexpected because when we met, we absolutely hated each other. I'd call it an enemies to lovers kinda thing. I hated him for selling drugs, he hated me for disapproving, but we managed to work our way past that and learned to love each other.
My sister told me that I shouldn't be in love with a drug dealer, now i think about it, it was a warning sign. I learnt the bad things that can happen from drugs. Rue OD'd and after that, at Fez and Ash's, she was drugged right in front of me, it was horrible. It was also probably the first time Ashtray comforted me before our relationship.
and i found love where it wasn't supposed to be right in front of me talk some sense to me and i found love where it wasn't supposed to be right in front of me talk some sense to me
It felt wrong to love Ash. My friends and family warned me about him. No matter what, I couldn't keep myself away from him, I couldn't stop loving him. But soon enough, Ashtray found out about the warnings from my close friends and my family. We had a whole argument about it.
"Y/n..they're right, i'm not good for you. I'm putting you in danger" Ash explained calmly. He gently cupped my cheek, i shook my head as tears fell. "No, they're wrong. I love you!" I argued, letting out sobs. Knowing Ash, he'd let me go. He wouldn't change his mind. He'd do anything to keep me safe. "Listen to me, Y/n. I'm not suggesting to leave you, I'm making a decision. I'm not gonna ruin your life" he explained sternly.
"Please..." I whispered back, he connected his forehead to mine as i shook from sobs. "I-i need you Ash, i real-really need you" Ashtray shook his head and softly hushed me. "No, no...ma, you don't. I'm gonna keep you safe and keep my distance, understand me?" He murmured. After a that, i agreed. Too weak to argue knowing i'd get nowhere.
Ever since then, Ash didn't talk to me. Neither did Fez because he knew the whole situation. It broke my heart, i missed them more than I thought i would. Maybe one day, Ashtray will think its safer to be around them and we'll be happy again. But for now...i'll have to deal with the aching pain...
