Loving, Caring Hearts Book II of Lying Cheating Hearts (Completed)

Chapter 12

Hindi pa rin napalagay si Jake after the incident nang gabing iyon ngunit kahit pano ay medyo kumalma na ang galit nya pagkatapos ng pag-uusap namin nang kalamayin ko ang loob nya.

Hindi rin naman natahimik ang loob ko sa nangyari. Sino ba namang hindi magugulat sa nakita namin?

Si Jeff ay may asawa at anak na ngunit nakuha nya pang gawin ang ginawa nya. Hindi ko maintindihan.

Pero dapat ko bang maintindihan dahil I wasn't perfect before because I have cheated myself numerous times? Pero unlike Jeff, hindi pa ako kasal, pero does that make it worse or better? May 'better' bang sitwasyon sa pangangaliwa? Hindi ba ang mali ay mali?

I realized, what if ako, or si Jake ang nasa kalagayan ni Jeff man o ni Lily? How would I have handled it? How would Jake? Hindi ko ata kaya. Iba na ang sitwasyon, hindi na tulad ng dati.

Ang daling mang-husga pag hindi ikaw yung involved. Gusto kong kausapin si Jeff pero anong sasabihin ko? Na mali sya? Sila? Sasabihin ko ba kay Justine ang nalalaman ko? Or do I just let them deal with their issues. Ang hirap.

"Gising ka pa?" Jake asked sa dilim ng gabi. It's super late na pero we're still wide awake having laid for hours already.

"Yes," sabi ko. "I can't sleep."

"Who would be able to sleep? After what we've seen," sabi nya.

"Babe, let it go for now. Magiging busy tayo. Let us not think about that sa ngayon. Plan for Barcelona. How are we going to do shoots from one country to the next in just a short time? And you have photoshoots pa for the magazines. That's aside from our schedule sa mga seminars for the wedding. We cannot let this ruin the things in line," remind ko sa kanya.

"Yet it's also bothering you. Right?" tanong nya to confirm.

"Yes, I don't know what to do Babe. Shall I mention this to Justine?" tanong ko. Social, moral and family dilemma.

"I'm sorry Babe," sabi nya and hugged me tight. Hinalikan nya ang noo ko.

"Why? It's not your fault that they had or have an affair," sabi ko.

"You must have felt like this when you saw Fran and I," sabi nya.

"Oh my God! Let us not talk about that," irap ko sa dilim. "Pwede ba?!"

Fran was Ron's fiancée at a time when Fran and Jake had an affair. Ron was an ex of mine as I have previously shared. I saw Jake and Fran one fateful afternoon after they just had a quickie in the bathroom of a resto in a hotel. This was pre our love story. I was contemplating if I should tell Ron what I had seen. In the end, I had Jake tell Ron himself.

"I'm sorry. I was bad and naughty," bulong nya na ramdam mo ang genuine na pagsisisi. "Now, I feel in the same stupid rut as you may have felt before. Naiipit tayo and I'm sure this was how you were feeling."

Napabuntung-hininga ako. "Yes, it kind of is. Pero I know this was harder. This hits home. Jeff is my cousin and we're talking affecting my niece. He is a married man."

"Gusto kong magalit kay Ate, pero pag nahalata nila mommy magiging gulo lang and it may ruin our wedding and that's what I don't want to happen. If isikreto ko 'to I don't want her to think she's getting away with this again," buntung-hinga ni Jake.

"If I talk to Jeff, Babe, what will I tell him? Who am I to tell him he was wrong? Ako pa na tatlo ang naging lalaki sa buhay ko at one time," sabi ko. "Pero he needs to know I'm not okay with this."

"I'll talk to Jeff, you talk to Ate Lily, how's that sound?" suggestion ni Jake.

"Let's try that, let's see where that will take us," sabi ko. "Now, let's rest," I said and kissed him.