Loving, Caring Hearts Book II of Lying Cheating Hearts (Completed)

Chapter 35

"Babe?" katok ni Jake.

Ang yabang ko naman kasi! Ginusto ko lang dapat mayron agad? Agad-agad?

May next month naman.

Pero bakit hindi nangyari? Pa'no if next month hindi rin mangyari?

I was enveloped with fear. Pa'no 'pag wala ulit next month?

Hindi ko kailanman naisip na possibility ang hindi agad makabuo ng baby o ang hindi makabuo ng baby altogether kaya I was really shaken when I had gotten my period.

Naramdaman ko ang pagdaloy pa nun. Napilitan na kong tumayo para magpalit ng undies at mag-tampons.

I looked at the stain in the hardwood floor. I wiped it. I had never been that angry in getting my period. Kung dati dahil lang sa inconvenience nun, at that time it's much deeper. Para akong inasar.

"Babe! You're worrying me!" Jake had been knocking.

Nahiya ako kay Jake. I got afraid I wouldn't be able to bear his child.

I opened the door. He immediately hugged me. "What's the matter? Ba't 'di mo binubuksan ang pinto? Ha? Babe?"

Nagpakulong lang ako sa yakap nya.

"Babe?" ulit nya.

I hugged him tight. I didn't want to answer him.

"'Di na ba tayo lalabas for your birthday?" he sweetly asked.

"Hindi lalabas tayo. Let me get changed."

Tahimik pa rin ako on the way to the hotel where we're going to have dinner with family.

I looked at my reflection at the car door. I wore black.

"Babe, is everything alright? Kanina ka pa tahimik," Jake noticed.

I could tell Jake wanted to talk about what had happened pero I was thinking, 'what will I tell him if we talk about it? Will I tell him there's next month? Pa'no kung wala na naman next month?'

"Babe? It's your birthday. Are you okay?"

"Masakit lang ang ulo ko Babe. PMS. You know. First day ko," I said, annoyed again that I had to bring up my period.

He nodded. "I don't get why you don't want to speak to me about this."

I closed my eyes. I wanted it to look like I have a headache and that I was enduring the pain.

I'm afraid Babe. And I don't want to show it. At nahihiya ako sa'yo.

"Babe? Please talk to me. I'm your husband. What's going through your head?"

"Later Babe," I said. Ayokong magsimula kami ng diskusyon na mapuputol lang dahil kaharap na namin ang mga kapamilya namin in a couple of minutes.

He still tried to get information out of me hanggang sa makarating kami sa hotel but I didn't say anything other than masakit ang ulo ko.

I felt my tampon give way to more blood coming out of me. I was sure may leak na sa pantiliner ko.

Fvck this. "Babe, washroom lang ako," paalam ko sa kanya as we went inside the hotel.

"I'll be outside the door," he said.

I washed my hands, got in one of the cubicles and sat. I pulled my undies and sure enough may leak na. Tinitigan ko yun. I had never been angry at that sight.

It's funny how I prayed for my period 'pag may nangyayari sa'min ni Maynard non when I was younger. Ngayon naman, nakakainis, nakakabuwisit, nakakagalit na meron ako kahit ayoko.