A Sweetened Life

42

I woke up with an empty space beside. "Shit umalis na ata sila?" It's already expected if tinakasan nila ako.

I grabbed my phone, dialing Liza's number. Bibigyan ko na lang ng space yung mga mag ina ko.

"Hello? Kuya bakit?" Sagot niya, "Busy ka ba? Pwede bang makausap kita or punta ka dito?" Tanong ko, parang di ko kakayanin na mag isa.

"Ha? Bukas pa ako may free time eh." She said, lugmok agad ang mundo ko hindi ko naman pwedeng sabihin kanila mommy at daddy.

"Sige okay lang." I end the call para wala na siyang itanong pa.

I notice there's a paper above the bed table side. Kinuha ko yun at binasa, di ko pa nabubuksan ng maayos halata na ang penmanship ni Irene.

Dear Gregorio:

I was happy when I devoted myself to you, the time that you fought me to your family and my family. The time that you proven that you're deserving to be mine. That I deserve to be yours. We had facing many problems in our life, in our family sides, on our relationship as a husband and wife, as mother and a father of two children.

I think it's perfect, I always think that's this problem of us was given to our almighty God, but I guess cheating isn't part of it.

I admit that I lied too. That, I had my fault too. Talking to that Jackson is also a form of lying and cheating. If I have a husband why would I communicate to other boy. When I found out that inaahas ka na pala ng kasambahay natin, my mind is on the point thinking I should also cheat so that you can understand what I feel. But my conscience can't do that thing.

This marriage of us came to an end, hindi ko inaasahang ganito ang mangyayari sa atin. Tama nga ata si papa, sa sampung lalaking nasa isang kwarto. Wala pa ni isa ang loyal.

Well, at least we became happy. To continue our happiness I filed a divorce. To continue my peace of mind, iniwan ko ang puder mo. Pero wag mong iisipin na masama ka sa paningin ng mga anak ko, hindi ako demonyita na directly na sasabihin ko sa kanilang masama kang tao. You did you part pero that cheating aren't part of it. Napakasipag mo talaga ano?

Hope you live well happy and healthy Gregorio."

The letter have an envelope under on it, I opened it and saw her ring along with the divorce paper she already sign it.

"Paano na ang buhay ko ngayon?" I can't help to ask throwing the papers around the room along with her ring.

I can't even imagine my life without them, saan ako mag sisimula? Kaya ko ba?

I look at the ring on my finger, "Napakasakit." I whispered while still pulling it off on my finger.

My phone vibrated, I answered it.

"Sir may meeting po kayo. Urgent and emergency as soon as possible." Trisha said on the other line.

"Punta na ako." I answered ending the call.

I stand up, bigla na lang lumakas ang ulan. "Shit umuulan." I don't really like going outside when it's raining.

"Nasaan na?" Tanong ko kay Trisha, di ako makahinga pero di ko na lang iniisip baka dahil sa stress lang.