Bucky. That's all Steve wanted and needed in his life. Before the war, during, and even after, all Steve wanted was his solider. His Bucky.
After the fall of S.H.I.E.L.D. Steve kept trying to find Bucky to bring him home. Everyone was against this...
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We take a few more minutes to ourselves before we get up, gather everything we need and leave our room.
On the way there, I intertwined our fingers together and pull him into my side. I just want to keep him as close as I possibly can.
Bucky and I soon make it to the lab to get him ready. This is it. I'm not ready but I have to be.
When we get there, Shuri and her team are preparing everything. I'm trying my hardest to keep myself today for Bucky's sake. I don't want him feeling guilty for doing what he needs.
"Good morning, Steve and Bucky" Shuri says.
"Good morning" we both reply.
"Alright Bucky, if you'll come sit over here, I'm going to get started so we can remove this arm okay?" She says to him.
"Yeah whatever you need" he tells her.
"Are you going to want a new arm right away as soon as you wake up?" She asks.
"Uhh you can go ahead and design it, but I'd like to wait and see if the trigger words still work before giving me an arm that way I don't go bat shit crazy" he says.
I couldn't help but chuckle at that. I just continue standing off to the side and let her work and observe her. She very gentle with him and is making sure he is not uncomfortable.
I take this time to really burn Bucky's features into my mind since it'll be so long till we are together again.
I get brought out of my thoughts when Sam comes over and stands next to me.
"How are you doing this morning?" He asks.
I feel my throat tighten up and tears slowly form in my eyes. I can't trust my voice so I just turn my head to look at him and simply shake my head.
He gives me back a sad smile.
"Hey I'll be with you every step of the way." He says to me.
I just nod my head looking down at the ground.
Shuri soon calls me over.
"Alright so it will probably be easiest to put him to sleep for this surgery to remove the arm, and instead of waking him up, we are just going to move him to the cyro." She says.
My voice cracks a little when I speak up "S-so this is it then?" I ask.
"I'm afraid so. I'll give you two a moment" she says removing everyone out of the room.
I'm standing in front of Bucky looking down at the ground. I'm trying to get myself pulled together for him but it's so hard.
"Steve" Bucky says softly.
I look up at him and a tear falls down my cheek. He reaches out and grabs my hand pulling me closer. We wrap our arms around each other.
"I'm gonna miss you so much" I tell him kissing the side of his head.
"I wish it didn't have to be like this but Steve I don't trust my own mind." He says to me pulling back slightly.
"I know Buck. I know. I..I'll push through it. I'll be fine." I assure him.
"I love you so much that it hurts Stevie. I promise we will be together again"
"I love you so much more and you bet your fine ass we will be together again" I say making him crack a smile.
Shuri comes in to take him back.
"Don't do anything stupid until I get back" Bucky says to me.
"How can I when your taking all the stupid with you." I reply back.
"Till the end of the line?" He asks.
"Till the end of the line baby" I say back to him.
I put two fingers under his chin and lift his head a little more and lean down pressing my lips against his softly.
I pull back from the kiss, and pamper kisses all over his face one final time.
"I love you, my love"
"I love you doll"
Shuri lays him down and starts to administrate the anesthesia.
He looks at me one more time before falling asleep. Now that he's asleep, Shuri's team take him to start the surgery and remove his arm.
Sam and I waited for the surgery to be over. It felt like hours had past but in reality it was only 45 minutes and until Shuri came out.
"Removing the arm was successful and easier that we had anticipated. We are about to bring him in and put him in the cyro. Would you help us get him in since he's heavy" she asked.
"Yes of course. Whatever you need" I tell her.
A few moments later, they come back in rolling Bucky in. I walk over to him and gently caress his face.
I lean down and kiss over his shoulder and the scars on his left side. I wrap my arms under him and gently left him up and carry him over to the cyro freeze.
Sam helps me place him in there carefully. Once he steps back, I push the hair out of his face and start to tear up.
"I guess this is goodbye for now. I love you so much baby" I say softly to him and place on more kiss on his lips and cheek before stepping back.
I watch as the tube closes around him and the freezing takes over. As soon as it does I break.
The tears roll down my cheeks and I sob hard. My legs give out and I fall down and place my cheek on the outside of the tube and sob my heart out.
"It's not fair. It's not fair." I kept crying out.
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Watching Steve break down like this is breaking my heart.
No one knows what to do at this point because they are all as shocked as I am.
Captain America...Steve Rogers has completely been broken...
