Over the next two days I still haven't seen dad. I tried going to his room but he never answered and I didn't want to just walk in.
This morning I had enough and I was going to get dad out of his room. I didn't care anymore and just walked in and didn't see him anywhere.
Maybe he's already awake?
I leave his room and go to the common area for all of us.
"Hey Sam, have you seen dad today?" I asked.
"No actually. I haven't see him since that mission." He says.
"Like at all?" I asked.
"No. Not once." He says.
"Huh. That is weird." I say.
"What is it?" Pietro asked.
"JARVIS" I say.
"Yes. Ms." He responds.
"Where is my dad?" I asked.
"My calculations show he is not here." He says.
"Where is he then?" I asked.
"Mr. Rogers-Barnes has been gone since the night you returned from the mission." JARVIS says.
"Do you know where he went?" I asked.
"No. I can try and run a scan through the surveillance cameras." JARVIS says.
"Let me know if you find anything." I say leaving the living room and going down to pops. If I can get into his mind he might know where he's out.
I quietly make my way in and place my hand in his hair again. After a few seconds I am back in the room from before. But this time it is a living nightmare. I quick do some magic to shift the memory to something happier.
"Papa" I say out loud.
"Wanda" he says.
"Papa I need your help." I say.
"What is it?" He asks.
"Dad has been gone since the night we came back from the mission. Do you know where he could have gone?" I asked.
"Sometimes he visits his mother grave sight but he would've been back from that. Umm...shit check the apartment in Brooklyn. The one he used to live in back in the day. Knowing Steve, he was to try and connect to me somehow and it'll be in that apartment where it all began. Wanda if he is there, you need to hurry. Even though I am in this coma I have a bad feeling about something. So please go and save your dad for all of us." He pleads.
I quickly give papa a hug and step out of his mind.
I make my way up to the living room and it is just Pietro.
He looks over at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Let's go. Quickly" I say.
I don't know how many days it has been since I left the compound. My head is pounding from the continuous drinking I have been doing.My mind was still on Bucky. All our memories together. Especially the bad ones.
Flash back
"Steve I am not doing this. I am not talking about it. I don't need to be taken care of." He says.
"Just because you think you don't need doesn't mean I won't take care of you." I say softly.
I could tell he was getting pissed at this point. But why? I just want to take care of him.
"Jsut leave me alone Steve."
"Buc.." i start to say.
"DAMN IT STEVE LEAVE IT ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP AND I DON'T NEED YOU. I WOULDN'T BE IN THIS MESS IF YOU WOULD'VE FUCKING CAUGHT ME ON THAT DAMN TRAIN." He yells at me.
I could feel my heart shatter in that moment. It really was all my fault. He followed me to the war and now he got captured by Hydra and tortured because of me.
Fast forward
"I know you want to protect me Bucky and I appreciate that. I really do." I say.
"I know there is a but coming." He mumbles.
"Yeah there is. But I am not going to sit out on this mission because of hydra's plans for me."
Bucky doesn't respond but I can see his fist and jaw clench. He lets out a sigh and shakes his head.
"I love you more than anything Steve, but I am tired of fighting. Even if it is a fight like this. You rarely let me take care of you and I don't understand why. I get you don't seeming weak in front of others but it is me. We have been in love with each other since we were 12 and 13 years old. And you still push me away when it comes to taking care of you unless we are physically intimate together. This is going to sound cold and harsh but I just don't care anymore. Go on the mission, don't go on the mission. I just don't have anymore fight in me anymore." He says standing up walking away from me.
Tears pool in my eyes watching him walk away.
"I should have listened to you baby. Then you wouldn't be fighting for your life again." I say with a slur.
"Oh boo freaking hoo" I hear a voice says.
I pick my head up and in front of my eyes is Peggy.
"Peggy. Or should I say Queen Hydra" feeling myself straighten up and sober up some.
"Ahhh yes. That is me! Gotta say, it is fun being on this side of things." She says.
"Why? Why do all of this?" I asked.
"Revenge for rejection" she says.
"I didn't reject you Peggy. Not once did I lead you on. I was polite and civil but I never gave you the idea we were more than friends." I say.
"Oh whatever. Back in those times, it was frowned upon to be with a man Steve. Why couldn't you have just picked me? Who knows, maybe things could be different. Bucky could be hydra free completely but no, you picked him and now he is suffering because of your actions. But I have a proposition, leave Bucky and be with me and I will make sure he gets the antidote to not die. All you have to do is join me or you die." She says loading her gun.
"Fuck you Peggy. I will never join you and I sure as hell would never pick you over my husband." I say.
Knowing how it is about to end, I dip my head down to accept my fate. My last thoughts are of Bucky. My love.
I hear the gun fire. But it hits me in the shoulder above my heart.
I groan in pain and look up and see Wanda holding Peggy in place and Pietro speeds in front of me.
"Hi dad. Hold on, I gotta get you to Bruce." He says picking me up surprisingly running to the compound. But I black out hearing people panic over me.
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Forever My Soldier
FanfictionBucky. That's all Steve wanted and needed in his life. Before the war, during, and even after, all Steve wanted was his solider. His Bucky. After the fall of S.H.I.E.L.D. Steve kept trying to find Bucky to bring him home. Everyone was against this...