The rest of the day I was wrapped up in my head having flashbacks of what happened to me and those I killed. It got so bad, I started picturing it being Steve in my place.
I took a shower and was getting ready for bed now. I crawled into bed and turned on my lamp and was reading when Steve came into the room. He walked into the bathroom and took a shower before coming to lay down as well.
He looked hesitant at first but he laid down facing the other way. I kept reading and when he suddenly turned over.
He was looking at me. So I turned my head to look at him. He looked tired and sad which broke my heart.
"Bucky" he says softly.
"Yeah doll?" I say looking back at him again.
"Do...do you still love me?" He asks.
I put my book back on my nightstand and laid down looking at Steve. I run my fingers across his cheek softly.
"Doll, nothing will ever stop me from loving you. When I said my vows I meant them. I knew there were and are going to be times you really piss me off. But I choose to love you and I choose to be with you because you are what I want. Even when you annoy me, risk your life, and piss me off." I tell him honestly.
"I'm sorry I don't let you take care of me." He says.
"Can I ask why? Do you just not want my care and affection?" I asked softly.
"No. No that is not it. It's just...when I woke up from the ice myself was all I really had. No one took care of me or anything like that so I had gotten used to doing everything on my own and it's hard to just give in." Steve says.
"How do you think I felt when I came back to you Steve? Especially with little Jamie?" I question back.
"I know. I will try better. I promise. I'm sorry Bucky. Just please don't give up on me." He says laced with vulnerability.
"I will never give up on you or us Stevie. Now come here and let me hold you doll." I say opening my arms for him to curl up in.
Once he gets comfortable, I turn the lights off and cover us up all the way holding him close to me.
"I love you Steve" I say giving him a soft kiss on the lips.
He leans in wanting more. When he pulls away he lets out a hum. "I love you too Bucky"
Time skip
The next couple days we finished preparing for the mission.
Today is the mission and Steve is coming. I stopped fighting against him on going. Anytime it is brought up I just ignore it or walk out of the room. The team doesn't think it is smart for him to come but he is being too stubborn to stay.
We were grabbing our weapons getting ready to head out.
"Steve, is there any way I can convince you not to go?" I asked.
He looked over at me and sighed.
"Bucky, stopped trying to get me to stay back. Look I know you are just trying to protect me, but this is my team and my family. I can't just stand by while you all go out and fight them." He says.
I just let out a sigh grabbing the last of my knives and walk to the jet.
I have a really bad feeling about this mission and I can usually trust my gut on things.
While we were traveling to the base, they were running over the mission again finalizing everything we needed to take it down and get Stephanie out of there.
Wanda came over and sat down next to me. Pietro decided to sit this one out to stay with Gemma.
"You okay?" She asked.
"No. Not in the slightest." I whisper but knowing Steve can hear me.
"It'll be okay papa." She says.
"I hope so. We both know what hydra is capable of when things work out in their favor." I state firmly.
"Yeah I do know. But I also know you will go in there and protect him with your life. It's what you two do." Wanda says putting her head on my shoulder.
"Will the fighting ever stop?" I asked softly.
"I hope so. I love being an avenger but some day I would like to settle down and have a family of my own." She say with a small smile.
"I am just too tired for this. The mission and fighting. I don't know how much more I can take. If or when we can defeat hydra, I am done. I just can't keep doing it." I tell her honestly.
"That's okay papa. No one can take that choice from you." She says.
I just nod my head and ignore the eyes I feel on me knowing Steve listened to the whole conversation.
After another 30 minutes we finally arrive.
"Alright everyone, you know your mission get in, find Stephanie, get intel, get out." Steve says.
We all break away and go out separate directions.
"Steve something doesn't feel right about this." I tell him.
"It's fine Buck. We will make it quick and get out. Nothing should happen." He says.
"Guys I found Stephanie, she is in a cyro." Tony says.
"Get it to the ship." Steve orders.
Before we can blink, a blast goes off and agents come swarming into the base at all of us. We start fighting them off one by one.
"It's him. That's cap. We were ordered to kill on sight." One of the agents say catching my attention.
I can tell Steve isn't listening that much because he is fighting off 4 other agents right now.
I quickly take the agents around me down and head over and finished off the last two fighting Steve.
We quickly make our way out of the base. As we were making it out, I spotted an agent up in the trees.
"Steve look out!" I yelled pushing him out of the way as the gun went off.
I felt two sharp penetrations into my chest.
Adrenaline is pumping right now and I can hear the blood pumping in my ears. I try and stand up but fall back down and start coughing up blood.
"No. No no no no no. BUCKY!!" I hear someone yell before I fall unconscious.
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Forever My Soldier
FanfictionBucky. That's all Steve wanted and needed in his life. Before the war, during, and even after, all Steve wanted was his solider. His Bucky. After the fall of S.H.I.E.L.D. Steve kept trying to find Bucky to bring him home. Everyone was against this...