Bucky. That's all Steve wanted and needed in his life. Before the war, during, and even after, all Steve wanted was his solider. His Bucky.
After the fall of S.H.I.E.L.D. Steve kept trying to find Bucky to bring him home. Everyone was against this...
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Time skip
6 months..26 weeks..182 days..4380 hours.. 262800 minutes.. 15768000 seconds. That's how long I have been away from Bucky. I miss him so much and just want to hold him, kiss him, cuddle with him, and make love to him.
My heart aches for him all the time. Sometimes these visuals of his are torturous because he's so close to me yet is so far away.
I also gave up on wanting to go back and ask my mom why she never told me about my sister. It wouldn't change anything and I just had to believe mom had her reasons for not telling me.
On top of all of that, we haven't been able to find any leads for finding Peggy. I also decided to not involve Strange in finding my sister. Tony has been helping out. I know it sounds selfish.
Like "oh Captain America, America's Golden boy isn't fighting to go out and save his sister immediately?" Yeah I am selfish. I am taking care of my kids and protecting them while going about this rationally. It could be a total lie that I have a twin to play a trick and cause me to walk into a trap.
Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years , Tony of course threw a party and I wasn't happy. Once again, I was starting or spending another holiday without the love of my life and I hate it. I am trying not to be sour and sad all the time, but damn it is just hard. I miss my Bucky.
Gemma has fit in really well with everyone. Except Nat. I haven't said anything but I think Nat is trying to not to give herself up. Gemma and I have grown very close. She and the twins are what keep me going most of the time. Especially when Sam is gone. They make sure I am never alone when I am down, they make me laugh, and really make this family wonderful. On Christmas I officially adopted the twins and made them Rogers-Barnes but they went by Rogers to keep it on the down low about me and Bucky being married.
Once we announce the marriage, the kids will have the full name. Shuri has called a couple of times to fill me in on Bucky's progress and it seems to be doing really well. It makes me happy to hear he is getting everything he needs.
Sam and the twins are out on a mission right now, so I decided to take Gemma out for a little daddy daughter day.
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Steve thinks we are on a mission but in reality Wanda, Pietro and I are on our way to Wakanda. Shuri called and asked for me to come and I thought I would bring the twins to get some out and see the world some more.
"Does dad know where we are going?" Wanda asks.
"No he doesn't. I made sure to turn the tracker off so he couldn't see." I say.
"Why are we coming here anyways." Pietro asks.
"Not sure. Shuri called me asking me to come, so we will see when we get there." I tell them
After another hour, we reach the barrier and fly through it. I land the jet and begin to open the hatch. As I walk out, I see T'Challa come to greet us.
"Ahh Sam, it is good to see you again. And who is this with you?" He asks.
"This is Wanda and Pietro Rogers" I tell him.
"Rogers?" He asks confused.
"Yeah Steve has three kids now. The youngest is at home with him" I say chuckling.
"How is he doing?" T'Challa asks curiously.
"Dad has his days. He tries hiding it from us but at night is when it's the worst. We've started going in at night saying we have nightmares or something to have an excuse to be with him and give him comfort because he never asks for it." Wanda says.
"Wow. So harder than I expected." He says.
"Yes. Much. But he is putting on a very brave front. Now, can I know why we are here?" I ask.
"Yeah, follow me to my sisters lab." He says.
The three of us follow and when we walk in I am shocked at what I see.
"Holy shit" I say out loud.
"Hello to you too bird brain." Bucky says.
"Uhhh no offense, why is he awake already? Did something go wrong? Please, dammit tell me I do not have to go back home and tell a soldier something is wrong." I say panicking.
"No Sam." Shuri say. "This procedure went faster than I expected, but I am keeping him here for another month to try the trigger words and do some therapy" she continues explaining.
"So he will no longer be controlled?" Wanda asks.
"That is correct. And uhhh Sam who are they?" He asks me.
I just chuckle.
"Well while you have been playing doctor on cyborg over here, a gentle golden retriever super soldier back home has become a very domesticated Captain." I say wanting to see if she picks up on him.
"Your his kids?" Shuri asks and Bucky's eyes go wide.
"Uhh no not exactly. He adopted us though, we do have a little sister too. Her name is Gemma. She probably is dragging him to every store possible today for their daddy daughter day." Wanda says.
Pietro laughs "or watching Disney movie on repeat." He says.
"You found her?" Bucky asks getting off the table.
"Yeah we did. She is so perfect. She is around 14 but small for a 14 year old because hydra are assholes and didn't take care of her. And She keeps dad and all of us on our toes." Pietro says smiling.
"Is he doing okay?" Bucky asks.
"The best that he can. He doesn't show how bad he is hurting, but we can tell. Like we were just telling T'Challa, of a night time we will make up a reason to go in and sleep in the bed with him so he isn't alone. I help with his nightmares too. I use my magic to try and keep his dreams only good ones of you guys, or good times with any of us." Wanda says.
"Thank you kids for taking care of him. It means the world to me." He says.
"Shuri, will he know that Bucky is awake? Because of the vitals?" I ask.
"No. I have them stuck in that place to where he won't suspect a thing" she says.
"Okay so slight subject change. When is he free to go Shuri?" I ask.
"Like I said, a month or two why?" She asks.
"Steve's birthday is coming up and their anniversary. I can only distract him so much on holidays. I do not know what else I can do to cheer him up on an important day in his life." I tell her honestly.
"I will see what I can do. I don't see why we cannot be done by July. It's only a couple of months. The biggest thing is just testing the trigger words and getting him fitted for a new arm." She says.
I just nod my head and we continue hanging out and spending time with the people here.
The kids and Bucky got along really well. We did not tell him about Rebecca right now because he needs to focus on recovering and we all felt Steve should be the one to tell him.
After a long day, we get loaded back up and head back to the compound.
