I woke up this morning feeling something wrapped around me.
When I opened my eyes I rolled over and saw Bucky laying next to me. I then started remembering last nights activities.
He came back to me. I pushed some hair out of his face and continued to look over his features.
A few minutes go by and he startles me.
"It's creepy to watch someone sleep doll" he rasps out.
I blush and before I can respond he's pulling me over on top of him. I snuggle into his neck getting comfortable.
"Hmmm" I hum feeling satisfied.
Bucky's arms are wrapped around me securely.
"Steve" Bucky says
"Mmm" I groan out.
"You've lost weight" he says.
I feel myself stiffen under his hold. He starts running fingers through my hair.
"What happened while I was gone?" He asked.
I just laid there quietly. I didn't want to tell him. He would feel bad and blame himself and I didn't want that to happen.
"Steve, doll come on. Tell me. We don't keep secrets" he says.
I let out a sigh and sit up grabbing some of the blanket to wrap around me.
I sat there and stared at my hands for a few more seconds and felt tears rolling down my cheeks.
"I tried. I really did. Every day I would wake up and remind myself to keep moving forward for you. But there were a lot of days that was really hard. At night I couldn't sleep much. I would have nightmares or PTSD episodes. When I would try and take a day for myself someone always needed something so I couldn't let them down." I tell him.
"Who took care of you?" He asked me.
I just shook my head. "No one really. They didn't really notice. If anyone did it was Wanda but I tried covering it up the best I could."
"Why?" He asked firmly.
"Because you know I hate being taken care of a part from you." I tell him softly.
"Steve, doll you are running yourself into the ground. There's a difference between doing your job, and your job doing you. Doll I love you more than anything But I haven't seen you look this bad since the war. I know you want to take down hydra and end them once and for all. But you gotta be smart about it and not kill yourself from working so hard." Bucky says pulling me into him.
"I know. I just don't like disappointing people. Someone or something always needs Captain America ready to fight." I sigh defeatedly.
"Yeah maybe so but I need Steve Rogers-Barnes." He says.
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Forever My Soldier
FanfictionBucky. That's all Steve wanted and needed in his life. Before the war, during, and even after, all Steve wanted was his solider. His Bucky. After the fall of S.H.I.E.L.D. Steve kept trying to find Bucky to bring him home. Everyone was against this...