Aeon Nether & Idol Effigy

Chapter 4- The Idol Plan

*^Picture taken from Pinterest. Artwork from the Manga - How I raised a baby dragon^*

I am officially 1 year and 6 months old. That is at least the age I saw when I woke up conscious.

It was a month ago that I roughly remember myself falling unconscious and a 5 month stretch before that where I was tortured by the late Emma's memories in greater detail. Although, I want to leave the option that she was alive open... She clearly died. Although a part of me wants her to be born again, but in a different place. Somewhere happier. But the kind of happier without drugs.

But she was dead.

At least that's what the screen told me. It read:

An error in the time code of your world is present. Error named Emma's memories have been carried over to its place. You are not Emma. Emma is only acknowledged as past and dead. Error code for text time and space has a relation to current error.

Overwriting.

Rewards for seeing the death that transcends time and space-

Emma's memories and experiences will automatically run.

If you're wondering, the reward focuses more on her life in more detail and it's also one of the reasons I was knocked out for a month. The upside is that the time I spent going through her memories and having my physical body mimic hers is faster than the real world time. I had gone over everything she had gone over and the amount I progressed in the run is directly affected by my passive healing rank. Suffice to say I've run through her 2 lives- original and the one where the more experienced female lead messes life up for everyone. And although going through 2 lives in one month may not sound that impressive, just know that it is.

Well, it's not something that can be clearly taken into account by anyone, but the person's whose life it is. Although, I agree that the common cliché or even cringy phrases such as, no one understands me, is overused. But it's one of the most underrated and real phrases that's used. For example, who is Emma? Emma to you is no one, but a character that is portrayed to you by someone else. Heck, since this world is different to our one- that is pre-reincarnation- we all probably see her as just a sad character that we're not familiar with. I've already seen her life flash before my eyes once before when I experienced her death and I could only feel a little for her. Situated in that uncomfortable seat with scum around me I could only feel fear and shock.

However, that was before I had to live through Emma's life as Emma and not just one life either. It was more frustrating than a difficult and confusing Otome game. Well, the Otome games were probably just confusing to me, because I'm slow.

But, yep... Day in and day out Emma was treated like scum that wasted oxygen by those around her. I also suffered through her pain, but it felt like I was living through the years she was alive. So the feeling of just feeling fear and shock disappeared.

Emma is quite smart and honestly it was a loss for our planet that she wasn't taught well. However, that messed up life allowed her to experience having amassed a load of knowledge for all things dungeons and other worlds. Look, I'm not saying she knows everything, nor am I saying she knows the key or important information on those topics. But being fluent in over 10 other world languages is impressive. Especially since the time difference of the places she's been and her age in this world would only equate to 29 years old in both lives. She was also completely uninterested in dungeons and otherworld's. It felt like somewhere she lost her innocence- sounds bad, but I'm referring to her realising how other people see her only as a tool.

Now that I think about it. I'm actual trash in comparison.

Why do I have to think about this stuff when I'm only 1 and a half-ish years old?! When is life going to give me fluffy parts?