King Silas and Queen Thea had wed for 5 years with no children. Rumors spread throughout the kingdom that Queen Thea was to blame but was that the truth? Betrayal, lust and sin fill the castle walls at every turn. Will a child be produce or will the...
I couldn't look any of our guards in the eye as the mounted their horses and we began again on our journey. Some had smirks on their faces others were busy chatting about how it was the greatest mission ever. We were now behind 3 hours on our journey. Peter wanted to just turn around but I insisted we go. I was worried about Farrah and if I was being honest needed the time to compose myself. How on earth would I ever explain why we were late ? To Farrah and to Silas. Not that my husband could really judge anything but what would the church say ?! The counsel ?! Some of these men were married. It made my stomach turn. What kind of people were we allowing in our kingdom ? Those women...what if my men weren't willing to sleep with them ? Would they have forced them too?
"Are you sure you don't want to just turn around ?" Peter asked.
"I want to see my friend." I said my voice shaken.
"I understand....I'm worried we won't be able to make it back tonight as late as it is." Peter sighed.
"Weren't most of these Guards married ?" I said not breaking my stare out the window.
"Yes." He didn't give anymore explanation.
"And they were just so willing to dishonor their wives ?" I crossed my arms.
I could feel his gaze on me but I didn't dare return it. "Queen Thea....you of all people should understand a man may love his wife but he might have other desires. Desires he gives into."
I turned to finally make eye contact with him. Shock written on my face. He knew? How did he know ? Did the whole kingdom know ? "How...." Was all I could muster.
He shifted in his seat. "I am his highest ranking Knight. I've accompanied him on many endeavors and battles. I Guard his tent at night..." My heart sank. I suddenly felt shame and exposed. Did he know everything ? Did he know about the dreadful ceremony? I glanced down to my hands. Tears weld in my eyes. I was so tired of being so in the dark to everything. To always be the one on the outside. This place has been my home for nearly 6 years and yet I felt as if I was still a stranger. That I would always be seen as some foreign princess and not the Queen. Reality hit me like a ton of bricks that I would never be able to have my king the way I wanted him. That he would never be able to love me the way I needed. I felt stupid for it taking me so long to realize that I was nothing more then a prop to hide my kings sin. Peter reached over and placed his hand on mine. "I did not mean to upset you."
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I raised my head to meet his blue eyes. They were full of empathy. His words made me realize I did not want to be on the outsides. Mother Queen Elizabeth told me I needed to start to know what's going on if I were to survive. Originally I thought it was a threat but now I see it was a warning. It was all earth shatteringly clear to me now. I no longer wanted to be the beautiful innocent Queen. I deserved much more then that.
"Thank you." I whispered to him. He raised his eye brows at me searching my eyes for what I was thanking him for. "You showed me who I want to be. For this kingdom..but mostly my child....I'm sorry I can not give you the answers to what's going on in the castle walls but....you have certainly given me an answer of who I need to be moving forward."
