Infatuation | yungBlud

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Luna Warrington

I stare at the nurse in disbelief I don't blink, holding my breath as she hands me the test that clearly reads " 5 weeks pregnant " on the little digital screen, my heart drops and I wanted a hole in the floor to open up and swallow me whole, I'm dreaming I must be fucking dreaming I pinch myself and the nurse looks at me perplexed.

" I'm guessing this was unplanned? We have options for you, I can go through them with you if you like? " I look at her, her expression has softened. " uhh no thank you, I'm just - this is a lot to process " I say shaking my head and dropping the test on the floor.

" this can't be real " i mutter to myself holding my head in my hands trying to hold back the tears of what I'm going to do, " would you like me to call your friend in? " she asks. " no no absolutely not " I snap, after Emily's little pep talk the other day about children I don't think she'd be too happy to hear about this unplanned one.

" uh can I keep this? " I say picking up the test and shoving it in my pocket, I think I'll need it for later to process what's going on, and what the hell I'm going to do. " of course, I can see this was a total shock so here's my card you can book another appointment when your ready to discuss what you'd like to do in the meantime let your mind and body process everything, sometime these things can be a blessing " she smiles at me handing the card and patting my hand.

I nod and wipe away a couple of my tears that remain I stand to reach for the door but the nurse stops me, " wait you were supposed to get the implant and I'm guessing you don't want your friend to know about this just yet, sit on the bed I'll put on a fake bandage like you've had it, giving you more time to think on things okay lovely? " she guides me to the bed where she applies a fake dressing and sends me on my way.

Emily had finished her phone call and was now sitting waiting for me scrolling on her phone, when she sees me she jumps up " sooo wasn't too bad? Wait you look as white as a ghost Lu! " her expression falls from excited to worried in the matter of moments. " uh yeah it hurt a lot more then I expected maybe she didn't wait for it numb " I say picking up my bag without looking Emily in the eyes incase she senses something as I head for the door.

She chases after me opening the car door for me as I place my sunglasses over my head to hide how watery my eyes were, she climbs into the drivers seat not saying a word as she pulls out of the parking lot. " maybe we should get you some food, bring you around a little " she suggests with a smile on her face but that's the last thing I wanted I'm far from hungry in fact I feel rather nauseous.

" pull over! " I shout she looks at me bewildered " PULL OVER EMILY " I snap even more, she does as I ask and quickly exit the car just in time to throw up at the side of the road, passers by look at me in a mixture of degustation and shock. My hands are on my knees I take a moment to hold my breath, I don't know if this is a reaction to being pregnant or the pregnancy It's self either way I feel drained.

Emily follows me out of the car coming over she rubs my back " hey, hey are you okay? God your body must be in shock let's get you home to Dom's to lay down for a bit yeah, come on sweet " she helps me back into the car handing me some water. I don't say a word I just roll down my window and watch life pass by, Emily takes my quietness as a sign I don't want to talk so she pops on the radio as we head back to the apartment.

I'm in a state of shock, I can't think I can't feel and I can't speak heading back to the apartment Emily takes me back to Dom's room and tucks me in bed, she leaves a bottle of water on my night stand and tells me she will be back in a couple hours with some food. The second the door is closed and I'm on my own I curl into a ball, placing my hand on my stomach.

There's a life in there, a life me and Dom created out of love, lust and being absent from each other. I've always wanted to be a mother, but is it too soon? Will Dom even want it or even me if I keep it? The thoughts are so loud and I'm spiralling into a state of panic.

Controlling my breaths I think back to 5 week ago, the ball! The time Dom got shot and tried to help me but I was infatuated with him after seeing him again I slept with him and it lead to this, I completely forgot we didn't use anything.

This baby inside me has survived through the stress of loosing Dom when I thought he was going to die, being trapped and the beatings from James. This life inside me is a fighter, like it's mum and dad. And in this moment I decided there's no way I can get rid of it not after it's fought so much to be here.

I'm only 5 weeks along so I can hide you, I say as I place my hand on my stomach and smile fondly to myself, " we will figure the rest out as we go along, as long as I have you I'll never be alone in this world " I whisper.

I take the test out of my pocket smile at it fondly before hiding it away in my bag, I'll figure out someway to tell Dom at some point but for now I'm going to have to hide I'm pregnant so that means no drinking which is impossible around Dom but I bet I can sneak off to the bars and get myself alcohol free mock tails or lemonade and say it's got something in it.

Or maybe I can say I'm laying off drinking for a while they'll understand, either way we will figure it all out when the time comes I close the blinds thank god they are black out.

And cuddle up in bed with Dom's hoody's cloaking my body his scent providing me with so much comfort I drift off to sleep.

-

I feel soft lips kissing my face, kissing me awake I wake up fluttering my eyes open to see Dom smiling at me " hello princess " he cocks his head to the side smiling softly at me, " hey " i say groggily rubbing my eyes to try wake myself up" Emily told me about today, you should of told me I would of come with you baby " he strokes my face so softly.

" I'm sorry I lied I just felt shy I guess, but it's over now " I sit up and notice Dom holding a paper bag " please tell me that's food " I notice my stomach growling at me in hunger, " yep Chinese our favourite " he smiles holding up the bag.

" I'm starving, you're incredible thank you " he pulls out the Chinese, and places everything on the bed before crawling in next to me and switching on murder mystery, life felt complete in this moment..well it would if I didn't have a huge secret looming over me.

" so how are you feeling? I bet you were a bit in shock " Dom says whilst shoving spoon fulls of rice into his face watching the tv, " in shock? No why, why I would I be " I say a bit too quickly making Dom stop eating and turn to me all suspiciously.

" your arm babe, bet you're gonna have crazy hormones now it's a good job I love ya " he smiles sweetly and I wipe the worried look off my face, for a moment then I thought he could actually read my mind, panic over calm down Luna for god sake.

" yeah it was different, something I didn't expect...yeah she did say would be a couple changes like my periods could stop, crying and such and such " I list of actual things that can happen to you on the implant but it just so happens the side affects match up perfectly with my pregnancy ones.

" wow really? That's insane that it can do all that, is it even good for your body like? You sure you're okay with your body going through those changes " he looks at me with unsettled eyes.

" I wasn't sure at first but after thinking on it, I'm more then sure about it now " I smile to myself, but I also have a pit of dread in my stomach. I'll have to face the music soon enough and tell me as the weeks go on I'll start to show, and I don't think round stomach is a side affect of the implant? Maybe some weight gain but I have a small frame I can imagine in 5 months time it's going to look like I swallowed a hole ass bowling ball.