Girlfriend? For Hire! [BL]

Chapter 48

Wyatt's Point of View
 
"I want you back," panimula ko. "Please, go back to me."
 
He scoffed. My heart aches. "Sa tingin mo gano'n lang kadali 'yon? Kapag sinabi mong gusto mong bumalik sa'yo ang isang tao ay babalik siya agad sa'yo?"
 
"O-Of course not! I know it wasn't easy, so I waited for 6 years for you to come back, Aiden. I don't know what will happen to me if you run away again. Believe it or not, I have loved you! I still do. I know this is confusing after what I did to you, but trust me, I have always loved you. I repent for what I did. I hurt you, not only by pushing you away but also by the words I uttered. However, maybe the six years I waited for you are enough for me to repent of my sin, isn't it? I have never been happier since you left. I've been miserable, so if I lose you again, I might go crazy. I'm not saying it's your responsibility to come back to me—just so I don't go crazy. What I'm saying is that I need you, Aiden, to survive. I can be better; I'll do better. I promise that I'll make you happy, and I will never do what I did to you in the past." I took a deep breath and knelt down. "Please, come back to me," I added.
 
"I'm sorry," he replied. I felt like my heart was broken when I heard his answer. "We can't be together again," he added.
 
When I looked up, I saw him facing the other way to avoid my gaze.
 
"You're lying," I concluded.
 
He's always like that when he lies. He will always avert his eyes because he can't lie while looking directly into your eyes. So I know that he's lying, and I also hope that he's lying.
 
"I'm not," he denied, still not looking at me. "We really can't be together anymore, and have you forgotten what I told you before I left? Should I repeat?" He asked as he turned to me. "Didn't I say that when the day comes that you realize that I am still the one you love, I will never come back to you? Now, you've got my reason why."
 
I shook my head and hugged his knees. It was fucking painful, but I couldn't cry. Parang pinipiga ang puso ko, sobrang sakit pero walang luha ang lumalabas sa mata ko. Kahit isang butil lamang ay wala. I want to cry so he will see that I'm sincere and that I'm really serious, but unfortunately, my eyes won't cooperate. Is this really my karma for pushing him away to save my face? Am I really too late? Dapat bang hinabol ko na lang siya noong umalis siya para hindi naging huli ang lahat para sa'ming dalawa? Fuck. I don't fucking know. If only I had been brave and shouted to the world that I loved him and that we were in a relationship, this wouldn't have happened. None of this will happen. No one will be hurt.
 
I shook my head one more time while still hugging his knees. "You... You still love me."
 
He snorted. "What makes you think that? Can you read my heart? Don't give yourself any hope; only you will be hurt. Enough of this; I already gave you my answer. Let go of my knees and stand up." He behest.
 
"Hindi kita bibitawan hangga't hindi mo sinasabing mahal mo ako," tugon ko.
 
"Do you want me to lie?" He asked and couldn't believe what he heard. "You brought it on yourself, so reflect on it. Please let me go now, Wyatt, and let us forget about everything. Perhaps this is the time for us to loosen our grip on the past and live our lives peacefully. Let's just learn from whatever happened to us before."
 
Even if he says that, how could I live peacefully if he were not the person next to me? I can't. Fuck, hindi ba niya ako naintindihan? Paano ko ba ipaiintindi sa kaniya na hindi ko na kaya na mawala pa siya ulit sa'kin? Na hindi ko na kaya magmahal pa ng iba. Na hindi ko kaya maging masaya, kung hindi siya ang makasasama ko. Fuck!
 
"Please... Bigyan mo pa ako ng huling pagkakataon at hinding-hindi ko 'yon sasayangin. Ipakikita ko sa'yo kung gaano ako nagsisi noong nawala ka. Ipararamdam ko sa'yo kung gaano kita kamahal. Please, Aiden..." I begged and pleaded, hoping that he would give me the last chance I was asking for. But his answer really tore my heart into pieces.
 
"I'm sorry, but my decision is final and it won't change. Sorry... I'm sorry." After saying that, he pushed me and turned away.
 
Why is he sorry? I should be the one to apologize here. I was the one who hurt him but still had the nerve to crawl back to him and ask for a second chance. I'm the wrong one; I'm the one at fault, so why... Why is he apologizing? What is he sorry for?
 
Instead of stopping him, I stayed on my knees there with my head bent. I stayed not because I didn't want to chase him but because my legs felt numb. I couldn't stand it; my legs were wrapped in numbness and weakness. When I raise my head to look at him, my heart hurts even more. Seeing him walk away from me made my heart ache. I just kept watching his back until it disappeared into the darkness.
 
Ganito rin ba ang naramdaman niya noong ako ang nagtutulak sa kaniya palayo? Look at me now, ako na ngayon ang nagmamakawa sa kaniya na bumalik. Ngayon alam ko na ang pakiramdam ng ipagtabuyan ng taong mahal mo, ng taong mahalaga sa'yo. It's funny, noon ako ang nangtataboy sa kaniya pero ngayon siya na ang nangtataboy sa'kin. It's as if the world flipped.
 
Well, who do I blame for this? It's all my fault. If only I had been brave enough to hold him, protect him, and not deny everything, he might still be in my arms. Shit. Shit. Shit. If I could turn back the clock to that time, I would. I fucking really would if I could.
 
I bit my lower lip and lowered my head. My hands, which were above my numb legs, clenched on their own. Ang mga luha na hindi lumalabas kanina ay ngayon naglabasan na. Kasabay ng pagluha ko ay ang pagkirot ng dibdib ko. I don't want to accept this; no, I can't. If his decision is final, so is mine. I'll imitate him, and I won't give up until he says yes. If this is the end, well then, I will put all my efforts into getting him into my arms. I'll chase him even if it takes us to hell.
 
[Tomorrow Morning]
 
KNOCK! KNOCK!
 
"Come in."
 
I opened the door and went inside. I walked toward Grandpa, whose attention was on the papers lying in front of him. 
 
"What brought you here?" He asked, but his gaze is still on the papers. "You need something?"
 
"I'll get straight to the point. Can you invite him again today?" I asked.
 
Tinanggal niya ang kaniyang salamin bago bumaling sa'kin. He leaned his back on the chair and crossed his legs.
 
"Bakit ko naman gagawin 'yon?" Tanong niya, halatang gusto malaman ang pakay ko.
 
"I want him back. He... He pushed me away last night. My plan didn't work out. I want to do everything I can just to get him back," I answered with pure honesty.
 
"You said you wanted to do everything you could, but why are you asking me to invite him? You..." he pointed at me, adding, "Should be the one to ask him."
 
"But..." I bowed my head, reasoning, "He won't come if I invite him."
 
Grandpa sighed. "At least you tried. Don't you think?"
 
I took a deep breath before raising my head. I smiled at my grandpa and nodded. "Yeah, thanks, grandpa! I'll call him."
 
He also smiled and nodded, probably proud that I listened to him. Anyway, let's call Aiden and invite him to come over again. Damn, I'm nervous. Haa, never mind!
 
I took my phone out of my pocket and opened it. I went to my contacts, and when I saw his name, I clicked on it and pressed the "call" button. After just a few rings, he answered the phone.
 
I took a deep breath before speaking, "Hello! So, uhm, I'd like to invite you again here if... You wouldn't mind."
 
"Huh?! Why would you invite him again?!"
 
Wait, bakit iba ang boses ng sumagot ng tawag ko? Sigurado naman ako na ang tinawagan ko ay si Aiden. Para makumpirma kung siya nga iyon ay tinignan ko ang screen ng phone ko, napakunot ang noo ko nang makita roon ang pangalan doon ni Aiden. Kung si Aiden talaga ang tinawagan ko, sino naman itong sumagot? Fuck! No way!
 
"Who's this?" I asked.
 
"Who do you think I am? Guess it and call back," the other party replied, and the call ended.
 
Muling kumunot ang noo ko at napaisip kung sino ang sumagot. Kababalik lang ni Aiden ng bansa kaya imposible na magkaroon siya ng karelasyon dito, idagdag mo pa na hindi siya masyado nakikihalubilo sa mga tao. Then... Was it that guy from yesterday?
 
I called again to confirm it. Thank God, he answered right away. "Hello?" I greets.
 
"So? Have you guessed it yet?" He asked.
 
"You're the younger brother of Aiden, am I right? Uh, what was your name again? Hmm... Luca? It's Luca, right?"
 
He sighed. "So, what do you want from my brother? Are you going to hurt him again? Well, let me tell you this. I won't let you hurt him again, not on my watch."
 
"Huh?"
 
Does he know about us? Did Aiden tell him?
 
"What, are you deaf or something? Should I repeat it again?" He sounded irritated. Of course, if I hurt his brother, he'll be angry.
 
"No, uhm, can you help me?" I asked, scratching my sideburns. "Can you coerce him to come here? I... I really have to talk to him."
 
"Haven't you talked yesterday?" He asked. "Never mind. Why would I do that?"
 
"Well... Don't you want to see your brother happy? I really love your brother, you know. You probably already heard what I did to him back then; I don't have an excuse. Still, I want you to know that I regret everything. I still love him." I replied.
 
"Why should I believe you?"
 
"You don't have to believe me yet. Help me, I'll prove it." I said.
 
He clicked his tongue and said, "Just once. I'll tell you the address of our condo, the floor, and the number. Go here when I'm gone and talk to him."
 
"R-Really?! Thank you incredibly much!"
 
"I'm not doing this for you! Tch." Then he hung up.
 
I'm glad that he agreed; I even jumped for joy, but when I realized that I didn't have his number, my rejoicing gradually disappeared. Did he just...trick me? Fuck!
 
I was about to explode in annoyance when my phone beeped. I immediately opened my phone and clicked on the message I received. I took a sigh of relief when I received a message from an unknown number that contained an address and numbers. The numbers probably pertain to the floor and room number.
 
I replied, "Thanks" before leaving the house. Sana hindi ako mabunggo sa sobrang pagmamadali ko. Ah, shit. Kailangan ko pa pala maghintay hanggang sa umalis si Luca bago ako umakyat doon. Teka, saan naman kaya pupunta ang lalaking 'yon kung sakaling umalis siya? May kakilala ba siya rito maliban kay Aiden? Tatanungin ko na lang siguro siya kapag may time, o kaya pagtapos ko makausap si Aiden.
 
Sabi ko kakausapin ko siya pero wala pa akong naiisip na sabihin o kung ano na pwede namin pag-usapan.
 
Kung bigla na lang ba ako magpakikita ro'n ay magugulat siya? Ipagtatabuyan kaya niya ako ulit? Akala niya kaya ay sumuko na ako? Hey, it's me, Wyatt, we're talking about! No way in hell would I give up, especially when it comes to Aiden.
 
Nang makarating do'n ay naghintay lamang ako ng mensahe mula kay Luca. Ilang minuto pa akong naghintay hanggang sa makatanggap na ako ng message mula sa kaniya. Naghintay pa ako ng limang minuto bago tuluyang bumaba sa sasakyan at tinahak ang kwarto ni Aiden.
 
I knocked three times before he finally opened it.
 
"Why do you seem so quick to come back, Lu—" He didn't finish what he was going to say when he saw that I was the one who knocked on his door. "You... What are you doing here?" His eyes were round, obviously surprised by my sudden appearance.
 
"I came for you," I smiled as I answered.
 
"How did you..."
 
I didn't let him finish. Tinulak ko ang pinto para mas lumawak pa ang buka nito at sa pilitang pumasok sa loob. Halata ang pagkagulat sa mukha niya sa ginawa ko, dahil mas lalo pang lumaki ang mata niya. Akmang magsasalita siya nang agad kong sinara ang pinto, ni-lock ko iyon at saka siya hinila papunta sa sala.
 
"Anong ginagawa mo rito? Paano mo nalaman 'to? Wala akong maalala na sinabi ko sa'yo kung saan ako nakatira!" Sigaw niya.
 
I held his arms tightly. "Don't shout, it hurts me."
 
"Fuck you!" He replied.
 
Damn. I couldn't help but laugh. Sobrang pula ng mukha niya, parang unting minuto lang ay sasabog na siya sa inis. Damn, cute, idagdag mo pa ang sinigaw niya sa'kin. Is he testing me or something?
 
"Wha-what? May nakatatawa ba? Stop laughing!" Sigaw niyang muli.
 
Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko para pigilan ang pagtawa, ngunit ang ngiti sa labi ko ay hindi nawala.
 
Parang kahapon lang ay broken ako, pero bakit puro kasiyahan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon? Hindi kaya dahil kaming dalawa lang ang narito? Damn. It takes me back.
 
"You can't blame me, Aiden. You're damn sexy when you swear," I implied, which made his face blush even more.
 
Crap, he's even sexier now.

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