Against All Odds

LVII

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Sara :

Wala ako ngayon sa sarili ko habang nakasakay ako sa sasakyan ko at bumabyahe kami pauwi.

Nakatanaw lang ako sa labas ng bintana ng kotseng sinasakyan ko at parang pelikula parin na nagpeplay sa utak ko ang video na napanood ko kani kanina lang.

I wasn't able reply to ate imee earlier because I totally forgot.

I got lost with my own emotion, I just found myself crying after watching the video that she sent me.

Nakapaloob kasi doon sa video kung gaano kasaya si liza habang may hawak si bong ng bouquet ng bulaklak at naghihintay sa kanya.

He was smiling from ear to ear and much as I don't want to admit it, he looked happy.

The video was filmed last night.

At mahahalata doon sa video na sinurpresa ni bong yung asawa niya dahil anniversary pala nila kagabi.

And that one particular scene just broke my heart when I think bong kissed liza on her lips.

Hinde kasi kita dahil nakatalikod si liza sa camera pero dahil narin sa palakpakan ng mga tao I assumed that it was on the lips.

I know that it's normal kasi mag asawa naman talaga sila sa mata ng lahat.

I'm just the one who's affected and hurt because I'm the lover.

Wala akong alam sa nangyayari kagabi dahil bukod sa hinde naman ako nagbubukas ng social media ay wala naman palang lumabas na kahit na anong video na nakunan kagabi.

It was personaly filmed by someone close to the family na nandoon dahil exclusive lang naman yun sa pamilya at kamag anak.

Tapos ay sinend ni ate sa akin.

Hinde ko naman siya nagawang tanongin kung kanino galing yung video dahil nawala na ako ng tuloyan sa mood pagkatapos ko makita yun.

They look so happy and inlove and it's breaking my heart into a shattered pieces.

Matagal na sila and it made me realize that it was the family I was trying to break apart unintentionally.

The video was so heartbreaking at kahit na hinde ko gusto panoorin, I needed to.

Kinailangan kong panoorin for me to have a solid reason on why I should to stop this.

Pero hinde pa ako handa, hinde kopa kaya sa ngayon.

I know he has his reasons but I don't care anymore.

My trail of thoughts suddenly stops when I heard van spoke to me.

"Ma'am, excuse me" magalang na pagtawag niya sa atensyon ko.

Dun ko palang namalayan na nasa palasyo pala kami.

Napakunot ang noo ko dahil sa pagtataka kung anong ginagawa ko dito.

"What the hell am I doing here?" I asked, confused.

Hinde naman ako sinagot nito at bigla nalang lumabas ng front seat at pinagbuksan ako ng pinto.