Having Toms Baby (a Tom Hiddleston story)

Another scan

*Celestia*
I check that I have everything before walking out of the apartment to go to my scan. I am excited to see how my two little baby girls in there are doing, but sad that I am doing this on my own ... I wish Tom was here.

"Celestia". Damn I wish it so much I can almost hear him call my name. How pathetic is that ?

"Celestia ...". I hear the voice again.

Lifting my head and looking around I spot Tom, he is standing by a car, not his own, his hands in his pockets. "Tom, what are you doing here ?"

"I ... would it be okay if I come with you to the appointment ?" He says softly. "I really want to be there".

"Of course." My eyes welling up at hearing those words from him. Despite what happened I am happy he is here. "I would never deny you that".

He bites his lip, and looks to swallow. "Thank you. Will you allow me to drive you there too ?"

"Okay, but this is not your car ... unless you got a new car". I wonder if heddinge get a new car.

"No, it's Ben's ... I slept there last night and he let me borrow it". He says walking over to open the passengers door. "You look beautiful, by the way".

I slide into the car. "Thanks".

It does all feel a little awkward and even though Tom is trying with some smalltalk, we are mostly quit the whole way to,the clinic.

*Tom*
"Oh wow !" Celestia gasps as she sees our babies on the screen again. They seem healthy enough, but admittedly I am no expert.

I smile. "They are starting to look like babies".

"They're perfect". She whispers happily.

The doctor tells us that we are right, they looks perfect for their age and they should both be fine

  I can't help but smile seeing how happy she seems, right in this second it is like nothing has changed between us even after all this time apart.

She walks back out of the room holding her belly, smiling down at herself. Her tummy is getting bigger every day. The twins will arrive in a few months now.

"So...". I start hesitantly. "Are we good ?"

Her smile fades slightly when she hears that question. Like She is wondering where I am going with this. "What do you mean ?"

"Well... You know...". I say awkwardly. "We had a lot of fun together. And I think about you often, but... Celestia I hate how it ended. I want us to be able to work together, with the kids you know ... as parents".

"But what happens next ? What's the plan ? What does Felicity say to this ?" She looks at me, and there is a pain in her eye that almost breaks my heart.

I take a deep breath. "Honestly I do not know. But the kids come first and I want to be in their lives, and I want you to be in their lives too, of course. I want us to share them equally".

She smiles at me, and leans against the wall. "Yes... I agree. We can make it happen. As long as we stay away from each other beside things that has to do with the kids. No more sneaking around or anything like that, alright ?"

My throat feels tight. This isn't exactly what I want to. But I have to accept what she wants. And sadly it is how it has to be.

I nod. "Alright. That sounds fair. So I will talk to Felicity about it today, and then we will figure something out, like how we will share days and all that, ok ?"

She nods, but I can tell she doesn't completely believe me.

"Don't worry". I say reassuringly. "It will work itself out. I promise".

"If you say so". She mumbles, and then it comes out through clenched teeth. "I hope you are doing well".

My chest aches at her words. "I thought about coming to see you, many times".

"Why didn't you ?" She asks, sounding hurt.

"I did not think you wanted to see me". I say, biting my lip. Also Felicity would have a flip.

She shrugs. "You might be right actually. Still not sure that I want to".

Such, that hurt, but I deserved it.