Helping Love | Klance | ✓

Chapter Thirty Five (Some Angst)

A/N: I rewrote this chapter because I lost what the fuck I was going to write and besides my headache and me having to go pee is making me get this chapter rewritten and posted. So let's go! Sorry for the wait!

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Lance trailed through the halls of the castle after a long day with Coran and Allura they had been working on switching the titles that were forcibly switched due to events. His hand slowly drifted to his stomach, he and Keith had been trying again now that he was free of restraints that tied him to his half father which he forever deemed Monster, he was worse then Zarkon. Zarkon, despite how tyrannical he was, never raped anyone. Mental and physical abuse and damage 100% but never any rape at least as far as he knows to be honest.

If he did get pregnant again, would he actually be able to see his child? The last two were basic miscarriages because of his Monster always going for his stomach in every attack and at every time he was pregnant. He decided he just needed somewhere to be by himself, somewhere were no one would be able to locate for the meantime, he needed to go to the vents for a bit. Looking for the nearest vent cover he found one near the medbay and took off the cover before going inside and closing the cover behind him, he crawled through the vents yes he's been getting better on his eating habits thanks to everyone but it did nothing to help his stunted growth spurt so as old he was which wasn't far from Keith's age and was the same age as Hunk he was about maybe only 3 or 4 feet taller then Pidge and they were both regarded the shorty's of the ship. 

Turning down a vent and sliding down he soon found a good spot that felt both cool and warm and layed on his back taking a breather and closed his eyes. He tried to picture Altea, he's only seen visions of it from Oriande and memories of what Allura showed him, the Juniberry's the green grass the blue sky the white clouds. He tried to Invision it all but in the end nothing came of it, he wasn't on Altea physically long enough to experience it. Sighing he opened his eyes to look at the ceiling of the vent, for some reason he's had doubts on his pregnancy now... could he even get pregnant anymore without problems surfacing? It made him shudder in worry and anxiety, he needed to probably have tests done for caution he didn't want another miscarriage, he didn't want a life to be lost again... it hurt like knives plunging so deep into the skin refusing to leave as if rooted down into the bones of his own existence. As if the knives weren't doing their part by themselves water seemed to fill his lungs and all the air seems to leave leaving him to choke trying to breath so much it hurts. 

The water wouldn't leave his lungs, it kept filling and filling and filling until he could hardly breathe even the knives dug deeper into his skin so deep it felt like he was being teared apart, he couldn't move. He couldn't breathe. He needed to breathe. Red's quick heat rushed into his mind going through every part under his skin pushing away the water and lessoning the knives, he took a sharp deep breath as if he's been out breath for hours, he could feel Red wrap around him in their shared mindscape her growls sent goosebumps on his skin but it was comforting. "I've got you cub, calm down" he relaxed breathing while letting Red mum him like Blue would do. "Thanks Red" he knew he was having an anxiety attack without really realizing it. He knew that after his mind registered and with Red's quick action. "Do I need to get Keith?" she asked him he frowned, he didn't want to worry anyone but he guessed it would be better on the safer side. "Yeah, But I don't think he'll be able to locate me in the vents" he told her "He will not get lost, a mate doesn't loose their mates sent or aura." she explained "That's possible?" he asked "It is cub I will be back momentarily don't let your thoughts spiral down into the depths" he nodded and her warmth faded a few seconds later. It was minutes in the silence before he could hears clamoring sounds of the vents and then heard his name "Lance? Where are you" Keith. "I'm over here" he heard more clamoring before he saw Keith's face "You really know how to make a lion worry so much she's basically growling at me so hard it's about to make jump out of the castle" he chuckled as Keith slid down, he was tall and broad so he had a little bit of a hard time moving around in the vents. "I'm sorry" Keith sighed and scooped him into his arms.

"Red said you had an attack, anxiety or panic?" he asked "Anxiety... I didn't realize it at the moment until Red helped calm me down before she went and got you" he explained "Whenever we get back to earth we're renewing your anxiety meds I don't want to be away from you and you end up getting hurt so bad to give me a heart attack" Lance sweatdropped, a lecture in a way. "M'sorry" he shook his head and moved Lance's head to his chest near his heart the Altean relaxed and his eyes closed listening to the heart beats of his heart. "Don't be, I'll be here you get some sleep" Lance wanted to object but his body and mind said no so, he closed his eyes again and drifted to sleep with Keith's heat beats, maybe sleep really was the answer while with his mate.

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