Live for me (Choso x Reader)

Chivalry ~ Ch19

(Y/n)'s Point Of View

After Choso and I had sat up on that tree for just over an hour, we decided to take a walk. I still had two hours or so untill I had to be back at the estate so Geto could explain to me about two special grade curses he wanted me to bring back for him. Choso apparently also had something to do in the evening, promising his brothers that do something with them under Mahito's supervision.

So Choso and I took this walk together in hopes that we could continue this peaceful day for just a little while longer until we were forced back into reality. The route we took was one that I was all too familiar with, a pathway through the forest at the back of Jujutsu high that I used to take walks on often when I was still a sorcerer. Being here with someone at my side felt odd, but being here as a curse user and not a Jujutsu sorcerer was even more odd.

"I used to walk down this path when I needed to clear my head, back when I was still a sorcerer." I told Choso who hadn't actually spoken a word for the past half an hour. He really wasn't much of a talker, just a really good listener so I felt like I had to make up for his silence.
"After Geto became a curse user, I felt like nobody trusted me anymore just because I was his sister. So anytime someone mentioned my brother's betrayal, I'd get mad and come here to cool down." I told the noirette as we walked.

"Why didn't you join him as a curse user?" Choso suddenly asked suddenly, suprising me when he began speaking.
"Well obviously I did eventually- as you can see." I chuckled bitterly, motioning towards myself- clearly not wearing a Jujutsu sorcerers uniform.
"But the first time, I didn't join him because I simply didn't agree with his ideology. He believed to that anyone born without cursed energy were measly monkeys- that sorcerers were the superior race..." I told Choso, unsure if he knew Geto's ideology.

"He didn't try to get me to understand where he was coming from. Suguru just let me be... and that was what allowed me to continue loving him through it-because even though he had become a curse user and I continued being a Jujutsu sorcerer, there were no bitter feelings between us." I explained, "I still kept in contact with him. I still told him about my day as a teacher and he then told me about his."

"We avoided severing our bond by not acknowledging his plans for the future. I avoided talling about anything that resembled his ideology. It's not that I was ignorant, because I wasn't. I knew what he was doing. The killing...the scheming. But as long as it didn't involve me, I was okay with it. Selfish, right? That's what Gojo thought when he found out." I asked Choso with a humourless chuckle.

"It's not selfish to turn a blind eye so that you may stay on good terms with your brother. I have done the same for mine." Choso admitted, suprising me.
"And now? Are you involved now that you're a curse user?" Choso then asked, becoming more interested in the conversation than he was earlier.
"Sort of. I still don't agree with any of his plans in the slightest. But I'd rather be stuck where I am now than be all alone." I said truthfully.

If Geto had stayed dead that day, what would I have done? Where would I have gone? Those questions pass through my mind from time to time.
"I've made it clear to Suguru that I refuse to kill any humans or Jujutsu sorcerers- so he has made me collect curses for him. Sometimes, I'd even hire other curse users. But not very often because he always would rather do that job himself." I said as we walked.

"The old Geto wouldn't have gotten me involved with his plans at all if I didn't want to...but this new version of my brother demands I do my part while living under his roof. I've come to realise that it's not so bad. It's easy and safe." I told him with a forced smile, "It's kind of like when I was a Jujutsu sorcerer... just instead of exorcising the curse, I bring it back to Geto."

"Is there anything you still do that you once done as a sorcerer?" Choso asked, making me pause briefly to think about it. That's not something I ever really considered thinking about.
"I guess...I still exorcise curses." I admitted slowly, looking over at Choso to see his reaction- which was stoic as usual.

"I exorcise the higher level curses in areas that the sorcerers don't go to- the ones that hadn't peaked Suguru's interest...the ones that wreak the most havoc." I mumbled nervously, "I haven't told Suguru, nor do I plan to. Honestly, I probably shouldn't have told you either since you're half curse and all...do you hate me now?"

"I have no affinity for any curses other than my brothers. So, it does not matter to me whether you exorcise curses not not. Therefore, I cannot hate you." Choso replied seriously, making me sigh.
"That's a relief. I wouldn't want to upset you." I admitted with a nervous chuckle.
"You care whether or not you upset me?" Choso suddenly asked me with confusion.

"Of course. We may not have known each other for years, but I've come to care for you, Choso. I'd hate if you were upset with me." I mumbled shyly.
"I've also come to care for you." Choso then replied, making my eyes widen as I looked up at him. Our eyes connected, and for a moment it felt like time froze, electricity sparking between us. I forced a cough out, turning my head to break eye contact.

I got goosebumps across my arms from the intensity of his gaze, making me run my fingers over my skin to calm them.
"You are cold." Choso suddenly said, his question phrases more like an observation. I looked down at the raging goosebumps on my arm, a blush forming at my cheeks when I realised that he noticed the goosebumps that he gave me- mistaking it for me being cold.

"It's-uh just a breeze. It'll pass." I lied nervously, continuing our walk without looking him in the eyes. After a few moments of silence, I heard Choso fumble quietly beside me.
"Take this." Theen then said, making me turn to him with confusion. He held out his purple scarf to me, making my yes go wide with suprise. I began smiling as I gently took the scarf from his hold, suprised that he would give me something like this. I've never seen him without this scarf so I assumed it must have been important to him.
"You are cold. I am a curse, so I cannot be." Choso then explained.

"How chivalrous of you." I giggled, "Unfortunately for you, chilvalry is dead in this era. Men are more commonly known for betrayal and arrogance." I joked as I wrapped his scarf around my neck. It smelt like him, like pinecone and apples. Choso then cutely titled his head to the side with confusion, baffled by my words which made me chuckle.
"Men are no longer gentleman in this era?" Choso asked with confusion.
"Not at all, no." I chuckled, making him nod in understanding before saying,

"Then I should set a better example."

(A.N ~ Small boi Choso gonna revive chivalry.)

Chapter 20 Quote Teaser :

"Damn it...fuck you for still caring about me."