Live for me (Choso x Reader)

Belong ~ Ch28

(Y/n)'s Point Of View

"You handled that really well. Thank you." Choso told me softly, thanking me for beinng so understanding with Eso. We were both sat on a bench in the patio, deciding that we needed to speak alone after the incident with Eso. I hadn't told Choso yet how worried I was during the incident, that Eso would attack me and I'd have to retaliate. That surely would have burned a hole in my bond with Choso.

"Honestly, I was terrified the whole time." I laughed softly, admitting the truth.
"Me too." Choso replied quietly, suprising me. I did notice how scared he looked when Choso turned around, but when the incident was over, I found myself doubtful that my eyes were seeing correctly- because why would Choso look so scared for me?

"You were?" I echoed softly, looking up at him with innocent curious eyes.
"I was worried...worried that I'd have to chose between you and my brother. That would be a fate worse than exorcism." Choso admitted to me.
"But surely you'd pick your brother. Surely the time we've spent together is incomparable against the lifetime you've spent with your brothers." I guessed, sounding more like a question than a statement.

I was curious, how could he be so unsure about his answer when there was only one correct answer.
"I wouldn't be so sure." He replied truthfully, making my eyes widen.
"I would have never allowed Eso to kill you." Choso added lightly, making me huff lightly with amusement, my eyes flickering towards the Koi pond that was Infront of us.

"If it's any consolation, I also would never have allowed him to kill me." I replied playfully, with a grin.
"I can fight back, you know? And that way, it wouldn't have forced you to go against your brother." I told him pointedly, telling him something that I would have done if he hadn't protected me. I would have of course tried to talk Eso out of the decision first- but if I could not, the easiest way to have dealt with him would to put him in my domain expansion untill I could get my brother involved.

"I understand that you are capable of protecting yourself and you do not need me to sheild you...but I would have not been able to to stand quietly as my brother- or while anyone else for that matter attempted to harm you." Choso told me, making me look up at him, gratefully.
"I'd protect you too, Choso...if it ever comes down to that." I promised with a small smile, but he didn't seem to take it to heart as I did with his promise.

"You'd do the same with Mahito." Choso mumbled out, making me scoff loudly.
"Mahito? No, that rat's on his own." I giggled, half-jokingly. It would really depend on the situation for me to save Mahito. If we were fighting another curse- I'd save him. But if a sorcerer wanted to exorcise him, I wouldn't stop them. My relationship with Mahito was an odd one- but at the end of the day, I hated the fact he played with human lives, using them as puppets.

Choso's lips curved into an almost unnoticeable smile, making my eyes widen. He smiled earlier too- how could I have forgotten something like that.
"It's pretty." I mumbled absent-mindedly, making Choso flicker his eyes towards me curiously.
"Hmm?" He hummed out, questioningly.
"When you smile, it's pretty." I confessed with a light blush, smiling sweetly.

"You smiled earlier, when you said that I was family. You were pretty then too." I whispered shyly, hoping he didn't notice how I changed from calling his smile pretty to him pretty. Choso's cheeks blushed pink in response, his embarrasses and nervous eyes flickering away, unable to reply. I took that chance to memorize every inch of his face, my eyes soon narrowing in on the black line that went across his nose. I've always wondered if it symbolised anything.

"Hey, Choso?" I called out softly.
"Hmm?" He hummed out again.
"Can I ask...what is the line across your nose for? A tattoo, maybe?" I asked him, lifting my hand up, wanting to trace over it with my ginger. But he'd probably be uncomfortable with that, so I lowered my hand down to my lap.
"It's connected to my cursed technique." Choso replied to me, making my brow raise. His cursed technique? Come to think of it, I have no idea what his power is.

"Oh, I don't think I've seen your cursed technique before." I mumbled in thought. That's when Choso lifted his hands and made a hand signal, mumbling something under his breath, making me focus on him with interested eyes. I watched as a single drop of blood slid down his cheek, originating from that black line. The drop fell into Choso's hand which he held up to me, creating a Kanji symbol for his name that I could read. I gasped at the demonstration, impressed by it.

"Blood?" I gasped out, watching his blood move around his hand like it was dancing to the music of the wind. It was truly beautiful and captivating.
"Blood conversion. I can convert my cursed energy in blood, which I then use as a weapon. This marking is where I access it." Choso explained to me, making my lips part with awe.
"That's really cool!" I gushed, "That way you wouldn't have to hurt yourself in order to access your blood!"

Choso nodded at my revaluation, but still I was in so much awe. His technique was so mysterious, yet so beautiful.
"Your technique is so..." I trailed off, trying to find a better word.
"Violent?" Choso finished with a raised brow, making me shake my head.
"Delicate. It suits you. I like it." I told him truthfully with a smile. He pauses, staying quiet for a few moments.

"Earlier, with Eso... you said power is beautiful. Do you really believe that?" He asked me, surprising me yet again. I had no idea he was listening so intently on my words, remembering them so vividly.
"On certain occasions, yes. I believe the power of Jujutsu can be beautiful. But Jujutsu can also be used for the wrong reasons, and that can make it ugly...like my brother's cursed technique for example." I began.

"His technique was once very beautiful to me. Now? I cannot watch him absorb a curse without feeling nauseous." I admitted. Silence overtook us for a few moments, making me look up at Choso for any hint as to what he might be thinking because he seemed so deep in thought. I could barely contain myself as I waited for him to speak up.
"You do not belong here, (Y/n)..." The man finally said, shocking me.
"W-what?" I stuttered out.

"You do not belong here, as a curse user- as your brother's partner in his plans. You do not belong." He told me, making me gulp- telling me something that I admittedly already knew. My eyes trembled, holding back my tears.
"I do not mean to put you on the spot or make you feel any sort of way. It is just that I've noticed that you struggle to be here since the day we met and I felt like you would be much happier if you were not involved with Geto's plan. If you were here as his sister and not his business partner." Choso told me bravely.

"You would be happier living a normal life, coming to see your brother on weekends before going back to a more human job." Choso added, painting a picture for me that sounded so real- so attainable. I wanted that.
"You think I could be happier living a normal life?" I echoed quietly.
"I think you'd be happier in your old life, as a sorcerer, but that is no longer an option. Your next best option is to take a step back from your brother and his plans." Choso told me.

"Then do you think I should leave- go and get a 9 to 5 teaching job in mainland Tokyo? Live a normal human life, live in an apartment with a dog and a partner and only see my brother on the weekends?" I asked weakly with an amused huff, saying what sounded like a mere fantasy to me. A beautiful fantasy, though, I admit.
"No." Choso then replied instantly, making my eyes widen with confusion.
"No? But you just said-" Choso cut me off,

"I said you do not belong fighting blindly beside your brother. Not that you did not belong beside anyone else."

(A.N ~ Hope you enjoyed! What did you think?! Do you notice that Choso's opening up more to (Y/n) same telling her what's really on his mind instead of just staying silent- ImPrOvEmenT!!)

P.s, anyone that can guess my future planned content for this book will get a follow :)

Chapter 29 Quote Teaser :

"Well, he's calm and collected and so he balances out your energy and excitement. Not to mention that he is smart and assesses all choices and outcomes before figuring out what to do, therefore being able to talk you out of stupid decisions- something that I evidently can no longer do. I approve of him."