Live for me (Choso x Reader)

Gesture ~ Ch30

3rd Point Of View

Silence seemed to take over the whole forest as Choso walked with Hanami, the birds no longer singing and the wind somehow non-existent. It would be a lie if Choso said that he wasn't just a little uncomfortable. Hanami had asked him yesterday night if he wanted to join him on a walk through one of the forests that he regularly strolled through. Choso regretted his agreement.

The cursed womb spirit honestly hadn't realised that spending time alone with anyone but (Y/n) or his brothers would just feel so uncomfortable and tense. How did he get so comfortable around (Y/n)? He wasn't sure. But no matter the time he spends with anyone else, he just can't seem to reach that level.
"This forest is where I come to ease my mind. I thought you might also enjoy it here." Hanami told Choso gently, making the cursed womb spirit nod.

"You do not talk much, do you?" Hanami mused, looking over at Choso's firm that seemed tense and on-guard.
"I do when I must." Choso replied, making Hanami nod with understanding.
"You talk quite a bit with (Y/n) though, don't you?" Hanami pointed out. Choso's eyes then hesitantly flickered over to Hanami's, failing as he tried to not show any nervousness.

"She...is different." Choso admitted slowly, looking away quickly.
"How so?" Hanami asked. Choso wanted say so many things but the one answer that seemed most acceptable was because she is (Y/n)- talking just felt so easy around her.
"I... don't quite understand it yet." Choso admitted, making Hanami humm with a nod.

"That is understandable. Feelings are a foreign concept for a being like you, I suppose." Hanami told the man.
"Isn't it the same with you, as a curse?" Choso then asked. Him and Hanami were similar is many ways due to them both being types of curses but the one thing that set them completely apart was the fact that Choso's half humanity came with human attributes that he did not understand.

"In some ways. However, I would not say that I can feel emotions the way you or a full fledged human can. I am born completely of cursed energy, thousands of negative emotions. I feel them vividly. But emotions such as love or happiness...I simply have to guess what that feels like." Hanami admitted softly, intriguing Choso, the man listening very intently as the curse spoke.

"I can confidently say that I am content. But being content is not happiness." Hanami told the cursed wormb spirit as they walked. His words struck some sort of pity within Choso. Choso was not the most emotional person in the world, but he could confidently say that he knew what happiness felt like- he feels it everytime he's alone with (Y/n).
"So, then have you never..." Choso trailed off, too ashamed to speak the rest of his question.

"Never what?" Hanami asked curiously.
"Have you ever...gained feelings for someone before?" He asked, feeling stupid already. If Hanami could not feel happiness, then surely not.
"Romantic feelings?" Hanami asked back, making Choso gulp.
"A-any." Choso stammered out.
"I feel content around certain people more than others. But romantic feelings? I cannot say I have. I can recognise it on others but I do not think curses like me are capable of love." Hanami told the noirette.

Choso stayed silent, nodding slowly.
"But you have, haven't you?" Hanami asked, a glint in his eyes that said he already knew the answer to his question. Choso stayed silent for a few moments, thinking over the question for a while in his head. Hanami did not rush the man, his eyes soft and curious.
"I can say with confidence that I hold a specific type of love for each of my brothers. But the emotions that concern me now..." Choso trailed off with confusion, his brows knotted.

"Are similar yet different." Hanami finished, making Choso look up at him before nodding in agreement.
"I am no expert but I do believe that is the difference between familial love and romantic love." Hanami told the man.
"What do I do with these feelings?" Choso then asked the curse.
"You offer them to (Y/n)." Hanami replied, making Choso stop walking.

The half-curse's eyes widened, looking up at Hanami who smiled as he stopped walking, turning to face him.
"It would take a fool to not know who you were talking about this whole time, Choso." Hanami chuckled softly, making Choso embarrassedly look down at his feet, unable to hold eye-contact
"Have I been so obvious?" Choso asked.
"I wouldn't be embarrassed. You've never felt this way before and I doubt (Y/n) has either." Hanami told him.

"Not even with Gojo?" Choso then asked, his head lifting up immediately.
"Gojo? Oh, no. They did indeed have a special bond. But it was in no way romantic." Hanami said, somehow calming Choso down a bit. That was kind of a relief to him, to know she was no romantically involved with Gojo- he admitted he'd wondered about that before.

"So...what do I do?" Choso then asked, his cheek burning with  embarrassment.
"I've been observing human's for a while, Choso. And so, I believe you must offer her a gesture, one that shows your feelings." Hanami told the noirette thoughtfully.
"A...gesture?" Choso echoed.
"Yes, one that is personal to the both of you." Hanami told the man, making him nod slowly, stuck in thought
"Now come, we have a bit of a hike ahead of us." The curse then told him, continuing to walk forward.

A gesture? He could do that...right?

(A.N ~ Angst and betrayal incoming :)

Chapter 31 Quote Teaser :

"Are you still here then, (Y/n)? Are you waiting for me to leave- because I won't. I won't leave. I'll stay right here until you come out and face me!"