Beneath Those Glasses

Chapter 29

Alyona Desteen's POV

"Ate naman, e. Bakit ka ba kasi lalabas pa ng bansa, ha? Bakit parang ang bilis naman? Kakapanalo mo lang ng kaso mo, 'di ba? Paano kung mapahamak ka?"

My sister who's currently sitting on my bed has been asking me questions. Damn. She has been asking me the moment I announced my departure.

After winning the trial, I decided to leave and start maybe a new life... not in here, but in another country. I am thinking of Spain... or maybe, Switzerland?

It was hard deciding for myself... because I knew I couldn't. I couldn't leave... because I'm afraid, I would leave her... again.

The months I spent with my Khiane Courtney Miraflor Adelstein was the best moment in my life. I have never been that happy... to the point that I wished I could freeze and travel back to the time so that I could spend more time with her again.

If only I knew we would end up like this... hindi na sana.

We had the best moment and time... the months we were together made me realize how lucky I was of having her. My Courtney made me realized that I am capable of being loved and loving.

I... love her.

I love her.

I was denial, alright.

We had it all! We became vulnerable in front of each other, we knew each other's secrets, we became the best buddies... although she said that we are completely the opposite.

Then, Amaranth told me... opposites attract.

We almost had it. The past six months... it was gentle and comforting. She was... my favorite almost. Almost girlfriend, almost everything. There were what ifs and could have been's... we could've been the best couple. We could have been the happiest people alive.

As they said, almost love is the worst thing. You were never official but the feelings were there.

She was my favorite almost but that almost was never enough. It wasn't enough to express how much love I am feeling towards her. I couldn't say she's the right person but in the wrong time because the time was never wrong... it was the universe that is playing with us.

But somehow, I disagree with my own thought. I always believed that we make our own fate or that it is us to decide for our future... or maybe I was just persuading myself because I knew I did something... wrong?

I sighed. I wronged her... I wronged my Courtney.

"Ate?" Nabalik ako sa katinuan nang marinig muli ang boses n'ya. My eyes went from looking at her to looking at my picture frame I have been keeping for a few months now.

It was her stolen picture, taken by Anastasia Dyanne. She blackmailed me with it in exchange of someone's picture.

Well... I've had this picture of her framed because I find it very pretty and candid.

She was pretty, alright, she has those charms. The moment I laid my eyes on her, I knew I was troubled.

"Can you... not tell her about me, leaving?" I asked carefully. I didn't want Courtney to know that I am leaving the country. The moment she ended the things between us, I knew I fucked up. I fucked up real bad and I didn't want to add up to the anger she was feeling towards me.

She said she loathes me... when all I did was to do my job. Everyone knows that I am indestructible... mapa sa korte o sa larangan ng medisina. No one could destroy me and my soul but her...

Hearing her say that I play dirty, that I was not the woman of my words, and her saying that she loathes me... simply destroyed me.

"Kahit naman hindi ko sabihin, malalaman n'ya 'yon." My sister heaved a sigh. "Miraflor-Adelstein have the power, Ate. They have connections everywhere... parang tayo lang."