Faint love II Jaywon

Chapter 39

Heeseung's POV

"It's been more than three months." the doctor said and we nodded. We all were sitting in the living room. He came to examine Jungwon. "See, let's give him two more weeks. If still nothing then let's go for another surgery. I will try everything to wake him up."

"Wouldn't it be risky?" Jeonghan hyung said. "I mean he has some brain damage and if we do bypass it be will risky right?"

"Dr. Yoon again you are bringing up your emotions. I know it must be hard for you too but you are a doctor. And we don't have any options. We can't let him stay in bed anymore. If he's not showing signs to get up we will do it." he said and all of us nodded.
The doctor inserted the drug in Jungwon's vein and left.

That night I stayed in Jungwon's room beside his bed. It was February twenty-eighth. He wasn't awake on his birthday and I was the one who wished him first but this year he wasn't even awake. I sighed and leaned my head on his bed to drift off to sleep.

Sudden beeping noises were heard. I thought it must be some car outside but then realisation hits me. I opened my eyes abruptly. It was the ventilator. Jungwon's chest was rising up and then down.

"Ju-Jungwon." I tapped his hand. "Hyung!!!!" I called Jeonghan hyung and within a few seconds he entered the room with my parents following him. He held Jungwon's hand and checked his pulse rate then he looked at the ventilator.

"Heeseung call Dr. Finn fast!!" I did what he said. Jungwon wasn't able to breathe. Hyung put the oxygen mask on. In a few minutes Dr. Finn knocked on the door.

Jay's POV

For the last two weeks, that is after his birthday, my parents didn't allow me to call Heeseung hyung because, after that, I had two panic attacks. One week ago my mother said the doctor gave two more weeks if not then another complicated surgery. At this point I was hopeless.

"Class dismissed. Listen to me in class. Which month is this?" Mr. Kim asked and everyone said ‘February' in sync,

"Yes, so concentrate on your studies more ok? Finals are in five months." he said and all of the students groaned. Again I wasn't paying attention in the class. Everyone thought I was a mad man.

The school ended. "Jay we will wait for you on the ground ok." Jake said and I nodded. I made my way towards the music room.

I sat beside Jungwon's place as I leaned down. I wished to cry again but tears didn't fall. I took Jungwon's guitar out which he gave to Niki. I took it from Niki and in these four months I started practising playing it. I started playing it while closing my eyes. That melody reminds me of him. Every time I do this, his smiling face while playing the guitar passes through my mind. I spent a few more minutes singing and playing.

"Jungwon-ah, after your birthday I haven't called you. How are you? Mom and dad were tense a few days ago and you know they told me to move on from you. Since that day I have been afraid to talk to anyone about you. I am afraid that they will tell me something that I least want to hear. Even a few days ago, our friends told me not to think about you too much. Niki and Jake were crying hard two three days ago and when I asked them they didn't tell me what was wrong. All of them are hiding something from me. The more I get curious about that thing the less I want to know. Jungwon, you are fine right? You are still breathing right? I should wait, right? Please talk to me. I am so afraid right now that I don't know what will happen to me after they tell me the truth. I am just praying it won't be bitter." As I said I wanted to cry but I have already lost my tears.

"I said I would compensate and reflect on my actions by staying with you for the rest of my life. I should get punished for acting a jerk to you but I hate this one. I hate this punishment of staying away from you. I even said I am ready to stay away from you if that keeps you safe but now you are not safe and still away from me." I forced a smile.