hits different - Taylor Swift and Travis kelce

see you soon

(A|N do we want smut or no smut in this book?)

-Taylors pov –

I've been going over every inch of the show for hours, just to make sure things are perfect for the filming tonight. They are filming the concert movie, which I'm excited about. It's a way to permanently capture the show, but it's also a way for those who can't attend a show to see it anyway. I want it to feel like you're there, not just watching it. I'm not sure if I can pull that one off, but I'm going to try at least. Im just praying I don't fuck anything up at least, I hate when I do that. I'm thankfully able to laugh it off for the most part, but it digs at my perfectionism.

"Are you flying tonight or tomorrow morning?" Alana Haim asks. The Haim sisters are opening my shows here in LA, so we are all hanging out in my dressing room. She is talking about the next thing on my calendar, flying to Kansas City to see Travis. I'm staying there until I leave for Mexico, and then heading back to him to spend time getting to know him better. He can't travel because of practice, so it's easier for me to do it when I'm on a break. The only thing I have coming up until November after the Mexico shows is the VMAs in LA.

"tomorrow morning. At like six am" I was contemplating getting straight on a jet after the show, but figured I needed at least some rest after being on the road for so long. Because my shows are so long, I only perform during the weekends, desperately in need of a break between to keep my voice and body healthy.

"I've only heard good things about him from people. Never meet the dude but he seems okay" Danielle says before taking a sip from her wine. None of us drink much before a show, but a glass of wine hardly messes with my body, so it's fine, for the girls too.

"He is nice, a real gentleman. But also has a good sense of humor and is dead honest." I gush. It's been a long month since the last time we got to meet in person, so I'm excited to spend more one-on-one time with him coming up soon. And even tho we don't meet in person we still talk all the time, that's what phones are for.

"He is a man, capital M. You need someone like that. Someone who isn't a pussy about standing next to you in public" Este points out and even tho the jab at Joe once would have stung, it doesn't anymore. He wasn't a man; he was a boy still trying to find his footing in life and wasn't interested in ever being referred to as my boyfriend by the public. It's not that I feed into that narrative, but if you are with me people are going to talk, I can't prevent that. If you've not secured enough in your masculinity, you can't handle being referred to as a female's boyfriend, not just by your name. it sucks that it's even an issue because everyone should just be held on their own merit, but this is how the world works right now.

"We like a man who is secure enough in his own masculinity" Danielle agrees with her sister, and I chime in with my agreement. You're not any less of a man because you're linked to a woman, because it's expected that a woman should tolerate it so why not a man? That's sexism right there.

It's nice hanging out with friends, especially before a show that's this important. Of course, every show is, but this time it's going to be permanently inked forever. It's a lot of pressure. Talking about Travis just makes it even better, he has quickly taken residence in my mind, and I can't wait to spend quality time with him.

"Have you jumped him yet tho? Because that's what I'm wondering" Este asks and I shake my head "Not yet, we didn't get past some making out. You know me, I'm not for casual sex. But perhaps during this visit? I don't know" I can't lie and say I haven't thought about sleeping with him, because I have. I'm starting to know him better, so it wouldn't be a casual hookup anymore. But it's the most intimate act two people can do, so I want to be sure before I jump into all that. But I am getting restless, horny, so my trusted right hand has seen some action this last month. I've needed to scratch that itch, or I would have driven myself mad.