hits different - Taylor Swift and Travis kelce

sleepless nights

-Taylors Pov-

You know the whole "sleep when your baby sleeps" thing, thought that was an exaggeration, turns out babies just never sleep. Mine doze for a little before waking up and needing something. not to mention that they feed every 2 hours almost on the dot because of their low weight. And that's a 24-hour thing, not just during the day. And they don't follow a normal day clock either, no they have their own internal clock that they follow.

I don't think I've ever been this sleep-deprived in my life, which says a lot because I've had some long nights going on over the years holed up in the recording studio until morning. This is a whole new ballgame. One kid cries which makes the other cry and then they keep it up. Not to mention that if they're not awake we need to wake them up to feed them. It's a mess and I'm exhausted after just a few nights at home.

Travis isn't any less exhausted, but at least he doesn't have babies hanging off his boobs every two hours. I do pump as well so he can take some feedings, but the majority of it hangs on my shoulders.

"Taylor goes back to sleep" Travis grumbles as he tries to juggle two bottles to feed them both at the same time. "let me help Travis" I jawn. It's the middle of the night and we are having guests in the morning, but the babies need to be fed regardless. They don't care that we are tired, no they want their food. Not to mention that Maddie is not a fan of the bottle. She prefers the boob, but we are trying to get them used to both ways so it's easier later on.

"No, you need sleep. You took the last feeding, and the feeding before that. go to sleep" he snaps at me, making Maddie cry and I sigh. Picking her up I take the bottle from Travis's hand and start to feed her myself. "Don't snap at me in front of the kids, they don't like it" I argue.

"well if you would just listen, I wouldn't need to snap, would I?" we are a yawning choir at this point, all day every day. Everything aches and it's hard to stay away. I'm sure I look like a trainwreck to anyone who sees me these days. Who knew having newborn twins was this hard? I didn't.

"let it go, Travis. We are doing it together and that's the end of it" We have been bickering a lot since we got home, most likely due to the lack of sleep and constant attention we need to give the babies. I hate it, I hate that there is this tension between us, but I don't think either one of us can help it at this point. It's the overwhelming feeling of being responsible for two vulnerable humans that need so much love and attention that's getting to us. it's harder than I ever thought it could be. All credit to any twin parents who came before us or who are coming after us. it's no fucking joke to take care of two at once. God help those that have over two babies, that must be hell.

I'm worried about the toll this is going to take on our relationship if this arguing keeps up. But I can't help getting a little snarky about such a lack of sleep and energy. I don't know how he is feeling but I'm completely drained, ready to pass out almost. And I'm panicking about our relationship on top of it. will we make it through this? Because it's hard times have newborns, especially two that need this much care. It's not like we got handed a single baby that was easy to handle, no we got thrown a bigger curveball than that.

-Travis's Pov-

There is a knock on the front door and both our families pile into the house. My brother and his family flew in from Philly, my parents came, Taylors parents and Austin. Everyone under one roof for a few days is going to be interesting for sure. But it's good to have family around, and on top of that, everyone is excited to meet the babies.

"where are they? Where are the babies" Wyatt comes flying into the room followed by her little sister Ellie toddling her way after her. "shhh, remember what we talked about? They are so tiny they sleep a lot" my sister-in-law Kylie says as she follows after her two oldest girls while my brother has the youngest of their family on his hip. She is a year old now and an avid runner.