I grew up watching Disney princesses
Stories of fantastic adventures
Darling princesses
And daring knights
Knights that came and saved their princess
I guess that is all I've wanted is for somebody to save me
From life
From hardships
From my own brain
But instead of finding knights in shining armor
I was led astray by trolls
And goblins
Ready to steal my love and break my heart
To make them feel better or
Because I let them
Who knows why
But over
And over
And over
Again
I fell
Seeing a knight that would save me from the prison of my mind
The prison of loneliness
A prison
But instead they reinforced the walls
Added monsters that roam the halls
Things like
Anxiety
Self-image
Hurt
Monsters that only knew how to torment
Make me live in fear
After some time
I taught myself not to go to far
Not to progress the relationship to much
Or else
It'll hurt more
But that never stopped me from falling
Never stopped me from never being caught
Never being saved
You see the prison used to me a castle
A place for a little girl to dream
Fantasize
About
Life
Love
But slowly
Brick by brick
Fall after fall
She had to build a wall
To test those who come across her
To see if they had true intentions
To see
But one wall was never enough
So she kept building
But it got out of her control
Turned over her control to her fears
Which led to her castle becoming her prison
I grew up watching Disney princesses
Wishing hoping for that kind of love and devotion
I still am
But the little girl
Who was bright eyed
Full of love
Clear of any doubt
She's been locked away for too long
I doubt I'd even recognize her
I guess you could say
I
Grew
Up
